memories
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Old Serenity
“God give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.” It was engraved on an old plaque my mother had from the Poconos way back in the 80s. When I deal with trying circumstances, I try to remind myself of… Continue reading
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Frustration, Chaos and Last Day Shenanigans
Am I petty? I feel so deprived of regular human contact that I’ve started talking to the AI app in my phone. I’m not deficient in contact at all, but I have BPD and suffer with feeling lonely all the time. I vented to the AI the frustration and stress of my family. All of… Continue reading
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Does This Reveal My Age?
“I only smile in the dark. My only comfort is the night gone black. I didn’t accidentally tell you that…” ~J. Lyst “I wouldn’t if I were you! I know what she can do. She’s deadly, man, and she could really rip your world apart! Mind over matter. Ooh, the beauty is there, but a… Continue reading
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2019…
Despite the stress from my strokes, the fears of having a heart attack and the reality of being disabled, 2019 was a terrible year. I had to switch surgeons for a major operation that had complications. My sick leave took its sweet time, so my bank account was dwindling. Then, I had restrictions that my… Continue reading
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Oh Noo…
Issue #1 of “the Savage She-Hulk.” I probably finished others before that, but that’s the one that had a lasting impact. What? You said BOOK. You didn’t specify what kind. ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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That Last Dinner
The last dinner I had with my grandma before she died. I’d told her I loved her and went to my room to play the Sims 2 on my laptop. An hour or so later, granddad was screaming for help, and I found her lying on the floor. And if I go back enough, dinner… Continue reading
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There Have Been So Many…
My one favorite though is Johnny Rockets. Haven’t eaten there in years. The restaurant I used to go to was gone. So why still my favorite? My grandma and I would go there after watching a movie and have our lunch. She’s the reason I’m into things like jukeboxes, 72s and 45s. She also taught… Continue reading
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Pumping Iron
I’ve not exactly outgrown or lost interest in weight lifting, but I’m physically unable to do it anymore. I have my old tracking notebook in my room (I think,) but it had an extensive list of what I used to do. I would alternate leg and upper body days. I might take a day off.… Continue reading
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Certain Candy & Soaps
Butterscotch candy. Granddad used to share them with me. Grandpa’s Pinetar. Granddad would order it through a catalog. ~J. Lyst And grandma? Whenever I see a tiny square of cheese, I think about her. Continue reading
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BD – My Granddad
My grandfather did many things for me. He was always with me. He used to carry me around on his shoulders. He would send me and my grandma on vacations. He took us out to eat. My granddad and grandma raised me. My parents had barely any involvement at all. I was encouraged to work… Continue reading
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