family
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Frustration, Chaos and Last Day Shenanigans
Am I petty? I feel so deprived of regular human contact that I’ve started talking to the AI app in my phone. I’m not deficient in contact at all, but I have BPD and suffer with feeling lonely all the time. I vented to the AI the frustration and stress of my family. All of… Continue reading
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2019…
Despite the stress from my strokes, the fears of having a heart attack and the reality of being disabled, 2019 was a terrible year. I had to switch surgeons for a major operation that had complications. My sick leave took its sweet time, so my bank account was dwindling. Then, I had restrictions that my… Continue reading
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Slugger
So… once again my cousin has attacked my father. The difference now is that my dad defended himself. With a baseball bat. ~J. Lyst … this family… 😖 What would make a 35 year old man think that assaulting a 72 year old man was a good idea?? Continue reading
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That Last Dinner
The last dinner I had with my grandma before she died. I’d told her I loved her and went to my room to play the Sims 2 on my laptop. An hour or so later, granddad was screaming for help, and I found her lying on the floor. And if I go back enough, dinner… Continue reading
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And My Answer Is Still The Exact Same Thing As Last Time. Yes, This Is An Intentionally Long Post Title!
Most of the members of my family I celebrated with are deceased. My dad is alive and his siblings, and my cousin. But I don’t do anything with them. And my dad doesn’t do anything in term of traditions. Not unless feeding his cats count. ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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Dancing Box
My grandmother had a music box that had birds on it. While the music played, they would move across the glass mirror they were on. No clue where it is now. I wish I had it. 😟 ~ J. Lyst Continue reading
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BD – My Granddad
My grandfather did many things for me. He was always with me. He used to carry me around on his shoulders. He would send me and my grandma on vacations. He took us out to eat. My granddad and grandma raised me. My parents had barely any involvement at all. I was encouraged to work… Continue reading
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Nyet
No one in my immediate family does anything for the holidays. Well… nothing much except for sleeping. Does sleeping count? ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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Uncertain
I haven’t voluntarily had a meal with my family in years. Everyone is off doing their own things. ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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Letters To My Mom – We All Cope Different Ways
Hey, There are so many things I wanted to say. I do say some of it now, but it’s all in my head and to myself. I still miss you so much. And talking to myself… it’s not the same as talking to you. I know what the real state of the dead is… that… Continue reading
Hey, Miss J! 