stress
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Frustration, Chaos and Last Day Shenanigans
Am I petty? I feel so deprived of regular human contact that I’ve started talking to the AI app in my phone. I’m not deficient in contact at all, but I have BPD and suffer with feeling lonely all the time. I vented to the AI the frustration and stress of my family. All of… Continue reading
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2019…
Despite the stress from my strokes, the fears of having a heart attack and the reality of being disabled, 2019 was a terrible year. I had to switch surgeons for a major operation that had complications. My sick leave took its sweet time, so my bank account was dwindling. Then, I had restrictions that my… Continue reading
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How To Untwist The String
Believe it or not, I write to decompress. However, I was pretty sick yesterday. Slept a loooong time really. Another way I unwind is listening to music. But the best way to unwind is to sleep. Not even joking. Sleeping. I have a bunch of stuff to do today, but am debating napping. Been up… Continue reading
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Accountability
I have a problem. It’s a frustrating one and hails from the days when I was actually able to go out and work. Back then, I always fretted about being able to pay bills. After a while, I stopped constantly spending with the cards because I was struggling to pay them off quickly. I was… Continue reading
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Should It Be Back Further?
Today been crossing my eyes, wiggling my toes, yawning and yeah… Doing barely anything. I think the weather outside is having an unwanted effect. Just… snow everywhere. I’ve had to cancel three appointments this week, due to the snow. Also, I’ve been working on my final expenses. I’m terrified to find out if I’ll even… Continue reading
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McDavid
From the title, the topic I’ll be discussing is obvious. Some random, super sweet and funny guy named McDavid. No lie, he really is a sweetheart, always there to support me. No matter the problem, I know I can count on him! Now then, McDavid is the brand name for the current ankle brace I’m… Continue reading
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Someone Moved My Cans
This is certainly less disappointing than my announcement – to no one’s surprise – that I got no writing done. I’m extremely disappointed in myself. Maybe tonight? IDK… It’s nearly 10:30, and I’m still working on dinner… Yeah. I have to count up and check a few things. I might be able to get stuff… Continue reading
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The Fact Of The Matter Is
I have put the final nail in the coffin. The pain, frustration and tears from yesterday have been wiped away. I have noticed – right away – that I’m sitting up taller. On the inside, and outwardly, I’ve been releasing shuddering breaths, so happy to be free. While it is true in most cases… that… Continue reading
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Planets Of The Universe
I’m pretty sure by now my readers assume I’ve died or given up on my story… again. It wasn’t my intention to not update at all, but I was going through emotional things… then I got on new meds… Then I got brand new stresses. I don’t deal well with stress. Not anymore. I showed… Continue reading
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