frustration
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Ha…. Hahahaha! Non! Try Again…
No. There is no way I could have ever been “destined” or “fated” to end up as messed up as I am. I am a person who is broken, and it would be cruel to have that as a sure eventuality for anyone. Saying that everything is “fated” or “destined” is incredibly offensive as an Continue reading
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Sadly, The Latter
My past shapes the woman I am today. I try hard not to, but things come up that remind me of what my life was growing up. I remember the bad relationships, the heartache, the anger. My frustrations in life. I look to my present… and how a lot of the problems of the past Continue reading
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Bar Brawls & Bad Decisions
Preview: “At this point in my life, I’ve realized there is no point to be upset about anything like this because there’s nothing at all I can do to change anything. Nor would I want to have any ability to intervene.” I am absolutely in love with “Brit Cops!” I can’t help but mentally make Continue reading
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Uninspired
… I’m not sure what’s happening to me right now. I was super motivated when this week began and then suddenly it’s just… I don’t know. I’m starting to worry that my mental state is deteriorating again. I’ve had hours today to complete an assignment that only takes me on average 2 hours… but it’s Continue reading
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Accountability
I have a problem. It’s a frustrating one and hails from the days when I was actually able to go out and work. Back then, I always fretted about being able to pay bills. After a while, I stopped constantly spending with the cards because I was struggling to pay them off quickly. I was Continue reading
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Hey! J – J – JADED
@ 12:14AM – Sometimes I’m so miserable that I don’t see a way out from this. The constant pain… it’s just unreal. I was supposed to stay up a bit later, but let’s be honest here… I have no energy to stay up longer. Just like I’ve barely had any energy to do much at Continue reading
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No Proper Places
Still trying to come to terms with my current situation. It’s odd… frustrating even. I get used to one issue (or major problem depending on my interpretation)… only for another more troubling problem to rear its very ugly head. I feel so anxious and stressed… worried about the possibility of surgeries or additional medications. Because Continue reading
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Where Has Gone My Dignity
It’s funny. When you don’t think you need it, you have it. When you need it, it’s illusive. I’m looking for it and vestiges of my sanity tonight. I explained to a friend that I was trying to get a lot done here. We ended up in a 2 hour phone call. Which means that Continue reading
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Reading Glasses
So, still struggling. I bounced between French and Arabic again. I’m so glad that I have notebooks for each. Fortunately, I’m using two very different branches of software to learn. I am trying to challenge my brain somehow, so that’s why I’m doing this. I’m starting to scritch my head with the Arabic, because when Continue reading
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