trauma

June 10, 2024

Accountability

I have a problem. It’s a frustrating one and hails from the days when I was actually able to go out and work. Back then, I always fretted about being able to pay bills. After a while, I stopped constantly spending with the cards because I was struggling to pay them off quickly. I was Continue reading

Introspection

anger, anxiety, betrayal, chaos, dealing with change, depression, discomfort, family, frustration, health, life journey, medication, mental health, mental illness, PTSD, regrets, sexual trauma, sick of being sick, stress, therapy, tired, trauma, trust, updates
April 3, 2024

Trust The Process

This is odd. I’m currently nibbling on some really good chicken fried rice and scratching my head. My obsession with “My 600-lb Life” is almost unhealthy. But… my attachment to “Intervention” is even stronger. I see how much my life aligned with and at times… parallelled the lives of the people who turned to drugs Continue reading

cooking, Introspection

addiction, beef, cooking, eating disorder, food, life journey, meat, mistreatment, obsession, reality, trauma, trying to cope, updates
April 16, 2023

Thick Or Thin

Of course, I’m listening to one of the Canadian singers I started to listening to years ago. The major one – and this sounds odd – but I visited her hometown in April 2001… That one was Celine Dion. One of the music stores we visited had a massive section in the back of dedicated Continue reading

Introspection

childhood, family, frustrations, mental illness, music, PTSD, self awareness, self conscious, trauma
April 7, 2023

Whispers From The Past

I suppose I could say I’ve been in a rotten mood all day now? For the most part. The day started off so nicely too… but today, I felt like my psychiatrist wasn’t really listening to me. She doesn’t try to rush me out of her office normally, but it felt like that today. So, Continue reading

Introspection

bipolarism, depression, discomfort, frustrations, medication, PTSD, regrets, trauma, writers
March 10, 2023

Promises, Promises

I can’t complain much about today. However, I am frustrated with myself. Since I didn’t get enough sleep last night, that threw everything else off today. I have fantastic news though… I have hot water again. I’m so happy! I look forward to a warm shower in the morning. I’m in the midst of loading Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

anxiety, bipolarism, childhood, depression, family, memories, mental illness, mood swings, PTSD, self awareness, self-esteem, trauma, writers
January 25, 2023

Fragility

10:57AM I feel exposed right now. Lost, alone and weak. I’ve been struggling with my memory all morning, traveling from room to room – only to forget what I was going to the room to begin with. I suppose this is just par for the course? My new meds are badly affecting my memory. 9:53PM Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

bipolarism, brain fog, depression, emotional, mania, memories, mental illness, mood swings, PTSD, self hatred, trauma, turmoil, writers
January 11, 2023

Little Shows On My Wee Screen

I don’t make a show of having material that might be too uncomfortable on my blog. It’s not a habit. However, my background as a writer and especially of fanfic compels me to note this… There is some upsetting information, a tidbit, about myself therein. You were warned. Been so angry over the lack of Continue reading

Introspection

depression, frustration, memories, mental health, mental illness, oldies, PTSD, trauma, writing