mental health
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I Cannot Capitulate (Public)
Preface: Despite the most recent battle I’ve had the last 6 years, I’ve finally come to the conclusion that my value does not depend on an arbitrary identity that I should have had. Did I want that identity? With all my heart I did, but that’s not my reality. I’ve had a very good friend Continue reading
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This Seems To Be A Repeat, But Here We Go Again – And Yes, It Still Really Hurts
I had an option to definitely live or to most definitely die. Horribly. I’m certain that I’ve answered this question before. I’ve had to deal with feelings of inadequacy. I’ve had to deal with feeling that I wasn’t fully a woman anymore. I have cried many tears, many times over this. I hate any questions Continue reading
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Just “Do” It
~J. Lyst I would also give my younger self the biggest hug. Continue reading
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Random Inklings
September 28, 2024 @ 10:59PM … Never thought I would see the day when I’d be happy to have a supply of prunes. Times are ‘a changing. — October 2, 2024 @ 1:12AM … Forgot this was here. Finally made gravy and yesterday stated that my day was boring. The whole day. Cos it was. Continue reading
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Irony… Thy Name Is Thee
Doing my chores. I wanna call it general laziness, because it’s really something I need to do. The main reason for the slump might be my mood dipping again. I’m trying to do better with taking my mood stabilizer on time. Along with the antidepressant in the day and my anxiety meds at night. Since Continue reading
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Good Question
For many years, I just trudged along… being moved/shoved along by others. My identity or self of self as a person was pretty muted. I have been told by a very close friend that I’m too complacent. That I “roll over and take it.” Which was true in the past, I’ll admit. I am outspoken… Continue reading
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Accountability
I have a problem. It’s a frustrating one and hails from the days when I was actually able to go out and work. Back then, I always fretted about being able to pay bills. After a while, I stopped constantly spending with the cards because I was struggling to pay them off quickly. I was Continue reading
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Is This Even A Job??
Step 1: Figure out if I even have a talent or ability that would be marketable. Step 2: Market it. Step 3: Repeat step one. Step 4: Create a business proposal. Step 5: Give up. Step 6, repeat steps 1,4 and 5 in reverse order. Is this a job? Sitting with someone to spend time Continue reading
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1-2-3 HEAVE
Yup. Still very much manic. I want to get the cleaning stuff done already. My sinuses are 10x better when I dust and vacuum. Still dealing with racing thoughts… unfortunately. I keep promising myself that either I get a good night’s sleep or I’ll go and clean up the entire house. Then, I decide on Continue reading
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Oh No…
Here I am, wondering why I feel like my brain won’t shut off and why on earth I’m running on less than three hours of sleep a day… I’m going through mania again. I think… the last time I did this, it was the same thing. I’m on a mood stabilizer, but I do know Continue reading
Hey, Miss J! 