life in chaos
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It Was A Scary Time
After my grandma died, my granddad needed help. I already lived with them, so I dropped out of college to get a job and help him pay bills. I also had to learn how to do laundry, grocery shop, cook more than eggs or oatmeal and balance a checkbook and deal with checks. Back then,… Continue reading
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How Could You Ever Know?
I know how poorly I will handle it when my dad dies. It nearly broke me completely when my mom died. Possessions aren’t the same as people though. But, it might hurt about the same. I have an emotional attachment to quite a few of my items. I even have an attachment to my box… Continue reading
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It’s An Every/Other Day Thing
I am very shy and uncomfortable around others–in person. Because I have hearing problems, I miss a large chunk of what people are saying in front of me if they turn away. … or if I’m over two feet away. Sometimes, I have problems understanding on the phone too. Now that I have worsening memory… Continue reading
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It’s So Strange
I’m a very open person about most things… though there are certain things that I don’t even share with my psychiatrist. A very good piece of advice I received was technically two fold. The first one told me this: “Be careful who you share personal information with.” So… I had that on board. I’ve become… Continue reading
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Adrena—Whaa?
The headache I developed from the nightmare of last night followed me until 2 or 3 this afternoon. I was in bed and trying to sleep it off. It was excruciating and made me queasy. I felt like my brain was sloshing around in my head. I still had a long task list to get… Continue reading
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I HATE THIEVES
Currently, I am trying to remain calm. But I have a headache now… I’ve already had two strokes this year and have an appointment in a few days to check and see if I have a clot that’s breaking off bits here and there. My evening was going fine until around 10PM this evening. Then…… Continue reading
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Is That A Rhetorical Question?
My answer to that could go in different directions. If I were to discuss how I felt mentally… I could rightly say that I felt frustrated. So, I suppose that I am frustrated. But while I am, I’ve once again cut contact with them. However, this time I didn’t tell them. There was no… Continue reading
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New Habits Acquired
Vacuuming, (recent) hitting the litterbox daily, toothbrushing, (trying to) keep on top the dishes, (recent) hauling out the trash everyday, (recent) nighttime showering. There is more, but no space for it all. Srsly. Let’s just say I make my life easier by being more proactive. ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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I Can List The Last Three
1 – It probably sounds morbid, but daily, I check to see who has died. I just found out another friend of mine died a few days ago. Too… too many people dying. 2 – I read about how aggressive they were because I was reading about bees and was shocked how short the lives… Continue reading
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I Have TeRrIbLe Timing!!
August 18, 2024 @12:58AM To give myself a chance, I’m starting off my chores tonight. I have 17 of them for today… Giving it a roundabout number of 10 minutes per chore, that’s 170 minutes… Nearly 3 hours. … I am marathoning “My 600-lb Life.” And eating seaweed… @1:38AM Okay… so the bathroom needed some… Continue reading
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