life in chaos
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Based On Recents…
Security can at times be an adventure. I’ve recently acquired a home security system. In the time since I’ve had it, I’ve had two people attempt to pull my front door open. One of them, unfortunately, was a local politician. I’ve met her in person. She’s very mean. And claimed she never came past my… Continue reading
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More Questions
… I have more of that than answers. I was discharged before 3AM this morning and had to get a Lyft home. I was told that everything was fine. That my brain was fine and my heart was fine. I was very scared because on top of the stabbing pain that rippled from underneath my… Continue reading
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I Would Call It Paranoia Really…
Before I had my stroke, the main thing I was worried about were people committing fraud to steal my property. Now? I’m afraid to be alive. Because as long as I am alive, I know that my life can end abruptly and painfully. I’m worried that I’ll die with no arrangements at all and my… Continue reading
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Why Do I…
… I don’t know if I’m dealing with mood swings or a sudden nosedive into the beginnings of a depressive episode. Does it matter? I’ve been told and treated as if my mental health problems are irrelevant. It’s irritating and hurts and it’s just… Some days, I wonder why even bother? I have a feeling… Continue reading
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Perspectives
I hope I don’t have a blog post with this title already… I really… really hope I don’t have a problem with some of these new leanings in the next few days. Since I’ve found myself feeling extremely depressed to the point of sickness… I’ve decided to not let the madness keep going. I’ve never… Continue reading
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How Do You Ch..?
I’m very happy to be able to write stories that others can enjoy. Out of all the things I can do, this is most certainly the best. ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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Stuff Was Slower
Hmmm… -Only opportunities for bullies to get me was in the school. -Used to go to the library to look up different things. -Ate meals with family. -Used a typewriter if I had assignments in class. The list goes on a ways, because I also think about a time before mobile phones. Stuff in general… Continue reading
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I Do Mean To Brag
Honestly, I don’t. I have several things that I am good at, so I’m not sure which ones to mention. Maybe a few. I’m good at singing. I played percussion for years, and I’m a classically trained pianist. I’m good at writing and slowly working on bettering myself at editing. I’m good in the kitchen… Continue reading
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Laughter
I have no money, so my legacy would be one of laughter. Even when I have a bad day, I always try to find one silver lining… ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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Past And Present
In the past, I did a very poor job. My life literally revolved around work. I molded my personal life around it. I didn’t take care of much at home at all, and I should have because I was caring for another person. I was often too tired to do anything when I got off.… Continue reading
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