depression
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Irony… Thy Name Is Thee
Doing my chores. I wanna call it general laziness, because it’s really something I need to do. The main reason for the slump might be my mood dipping again. I’m trying to do better with taking my mood stabilizer on time. Along with the antidepressant in the day and my anxiety meds at night. Since Continue reading
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Why Do I…
… I don’t know if I’m dealing with mood swings or a sudden nosedive into the beginnings of a depressive episode. Does it matter? I’ve been told and treated as if my mental health problems are irrelevant. It’s irritating and hurts and it’s just… Some days, I wonder why even bother? I have a feeling Continue reading
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Accountability
I have a problem. It’s a frustrating one and hails from the days when I was actually able to go out and work. Back then, I always fretted about being able to pay bills. After a while, I stopped constantly spending with the cards because I was struggling to pay them off quickly. I was Continue reading
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Tiny Trinkets
I have an old aluminum tin that was once used for black licorice. Inside it, I have a few notes my grandmother wrote to excuse me from class. I also had some of those little cards with the name and definition of a person’s name. I had hers in there. I think it’s still in Continue reading
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Where Or Who Are You At? (Pre-Write)
Ah… Monday. The kind of day to venture forth and do the things… the things that do the do! I hope I’m still alive by the time this blog post and podcast are read. The idea sounds dark and so depressing, but with the speed that my health is deteriorating… I’ve started to feel extremely Continue reading
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That Page Slaps (Pre-Write)
I will say this to Miss Lyst… I sincerely hope – Miss – that you have at least completed that series you planned off that Crood fanfic. It’s short for crying out loud! It’s a short off one of your shorty short shorts! Since I won’t remember this post after it’s up – as this Continue reading
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Oh No…
Here I am, wondering why I feel like my brain won’t shut off and why on earth I’m running on less than three hours of sleep a day… I’m going through mania again. I think… the last time I did this, it was the same thing. I’m on a mood stabilizer, but I do know Continue reading
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Hyped Off A Feeling
For the longest time, I’ve wondered and dreamt about what it would be like if I could build my own home. I got hooked into the Sims 4 back in 2019 after my surgery since I figured I could at least drown out my feelings in the game. Well, now I still wonder what it Continue reading
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Songbird
I’m so glad that I had the wherewithal to write a note so I knew I did my reading already. Right now, my brain feels like warm mush almost… It’s a very disconcerting sensation. I was sick earlier and the most annoying part is that it was within a half hour after dinner. Thankfully I Continue reading
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Can You Pay My Bills
So… my day was sorta off to a sucky start. Someone was allowed ahead of me for my psychiatry appointment. She put in my prescription, but the pharmacy sent me a text telling me the meds wouldn’t be available until January 2024. I headed home, decided to play with my kitten to wear her out Continue reading
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