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Tome Time – The 1st??
8:12pm – 8:25pm I know this isn’t the first time that I copy over a post from my paper journal, but it feels so odd. I realize… In a way, I am still hurting from my surgery. I know the reality of the situation. An intimate look at my life… that is what this is. Continue reading
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Letters To My Mom – Sometimes The World Needs To Stop
So, I had to put Mixx down. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be. I never thought I’d pen anything like this as a letter to my mother. But… Losing this particular pet was difficult. For context, my mother died in 2019, and she was very fond of my first cat Continue reading
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Letters To My Mom – We All Cope Different Ways
Hey, There are so many things I wanted to say. I do say some of it now, but it’s all in my head and to myself. I still miss you so much. And talking to myself… it’s not the same as talking to you. I know what the real state of the dead is… that Continue reading
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Past And Present
In the past, I did a very poor job. My life literally revolved around work. I molded my personal life around it. I didn’t take care of much at home at all, and I should have because I was caring for another person. I was often too tired to do anything when I got off. Continue reading
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Lollipops And Tears
Isn’t it a shame that I had to look up how to spell “lollipop?” I couldn’t even remember how to spell a word so simple. I’ve had a loaded few days. Yesterday, I found out that one of my friends had died on Friday. It just… It hurts. It seems like death is just creeping Continue reading
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For The Sake Of Priorities
I have so much that I wanted to do today, but I played Sims to decompress instead. It was a sad day. Another memorial service. Another death. Loss after loss. There are so many who have died of late. Some of my friends. Family of my friends… You don’t quite feel it as badly when Continue reading
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Agents And Heirs
Tonight is going much smoother, I think. I’m still going through something emotionally, but unlike in the past, I am working hard not to sink into a depression. Many things happen in life… that none of us have control over. Instead of beating myself up like I have in the past – I’ve stepped back Continue reading
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Hapless Hubris
… I’m growing more and more uncertain how to start these. Of late, all I can imagine myself writing in my blog is “I” … “I… I… I… I”!! I shouldn’t be upset at myself over this. After all, the entire blog is supposed to be about my life. It’s meant to be a solid Continue reading
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If You Asked Me To
2:31AM Charisma in all its glory is a wholly irregular animal in and of itself. How do we know who is truly charismatic? Are they being honest or are they being a liar? And now that we’re on the topic of charisma and charms… I have it. In spades. Not a boast. Not a humble Continue reading
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