life in chaos
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I Will Go Down With This Ship
Today’s title is courtesy of a line from one of my favorite Dido songs. So… I figured out around midnight why I was such a wreck on Friday. First, a terrible event occurs. Time passes and you start to come to terms with it… You learn to adapt and accept it. You have no choice… Continue reading
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One Moment In Time
This must be one of the worst days I’ve had since this year started. It’s not because of someone else being rude or cruel to me. It’s not because of being sick and in pain all day—which I was. Instead, it is because my mental state seemingly deteriorated over the course of the day. It… Continue reading
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Recharge
I’m trying hard not to think about what it means if my bloodwork shows evidence of muscle breakdown. Some of the possibilities are very detrimental to my overall health. I don’t like this – the constant sensation of feeling so tired and weak. One thing I do know is that I have got to find… Continue reading
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Woe
I knew something was wrong when my desire to sleep was stronger than my desire to update my blog tonight. I have a notebook labeled ‘Days,’ and I’ve been using it to log what I did over the course of the day. Why am I doing this? Because otherwise I won’t remember. Instead of my… Continue reading
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It’s Fine To Make Mistakes – You’re Only Human
Burning. On fire. Aching. Stabbing pain. Extreme fatigue. This is what I’ve experienced today. I’m not sure if it’s due to the cold or that my fibromyalgia is getting worse. Probably the latter. I’ve been struggling so much just trying to travel up and down the stairs today. My back and ribs hurt so much.… Continue reading
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When Out Of Rome…
We do what we wanna do. I’m trying to navigate this whole thing… logging my day and stuff by hand. It’s so strange. But my memory loss is becoming this scary thing that I don’t think I’ll be able to easily come to terms with. I’m uncertain if I’m suffering from the beginning of a… Continue reading
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No Cause For Concern
One day at a time. That’s how I’m trying to go about my days now. Part of today involved me lying stretched out with the cats right near me. Which was fine… until the kitten stepped in the wrong spot on me. Much yelping occurred and now she’s giving me a bit of space. As… Continue reading
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Justice
For many years now, I’ve found myself on the edge of a meltdown over how many times people are hurt. The criminals far too often get away with it. And… at times, the punishment is far below what should happen because of the severity of the crime. I’m bombarded daily with messages from the Ring… Continue reading
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