depression
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All That Shivers Is Gold
My mood isn’t so bad right now… I think it’s because I’m trying to get back on a regular schedule with my medicine. Music has an enormous effect on my mood too! Current Song On Repeat: Boy Meets Girl – Waiting For A Star To Fall My house smells like the Angus beef I just… Continue reading
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Up By The Bootstraps
I have a few ideas for tonight. I’m not sure if they’ll work properly. I feel like I’m constantly running on one of those giant hamster wheels. It’s strange… like I never really go anywhere. I make it a few steps forward, then get stuck and end up scrambling to keep going. I had a… Continue reading
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At The Beginning
I never expected my blog to go nearly as far as it has. I also had absolutely no clue that I would come to really value it. I’ve used blogging sites in the past. One of them was called “blogger”, I think? I’ve also used DeadJournal, LiveJournal and real paper journals. Those past journals contained… Continue reading
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The Never-Ending Road
Were I to look back, even though I’ve said otherwise… I’m very grateful for how I got to be here. None of it was easy, at least not from the start. I still have doubts and question myself often. Yet… I’ve found more reason to smile of late. Maybe being in compliance with my treatments… Continue reading
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The Pitfalls Of Dependency
This post is partially NSFW near the bottom. You have been warned. I had a different idea for my title today. Potential options will be included below… somewhere. I chose otherwise because I just found what I wrote this morning, while waiting to see my psychiatrist. It went like this: “@10:10am today. I forgot where… Continue reading
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Weak Links
This post is a giant Trigger Warning. In the past, I didn’t have much time to focus too much on my imperfections. Or… maybe I did and just never had any evidence of it? I will admit, having a blog – which is essence a digital diary – it comes in handy. I wish I’d… Continue reading
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Uncleared Minds
Now that I understand why I’m so drawn and weary, I’m still upset at how often I have to stop to just sleep. I don’t want to, but unfortunately my body has other plans. Does that sound like I’m lazy? I have a widespread chronic condition that makes it nearly impossible to work at 100%,… Continue reading
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Seat Of Motivation
I don’t have long, so let’s talk. I’ve often questioned what was the driving force behind what I do. I enjoy soft, fuzzy things that make me feel warm. Maybe that’s why I write fluffy stories so well… because it’s something that I don’t have in my life. I yearn for it. Sometimes, I feel… Continue reading
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