depression
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Tome Time – The 1st??
8:12pm – 8:25pm I know this isn’t the first time that I copy over a post from my paper journal, but it feels so odd. I realize… In a way, I am still hurting from my surgery. I know the reality of the situation. An intimate look at my life… that is what this is. Continue reading
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To Be Anti Anti Depressant
New med… took it a bit over an hour ago. Feel like passing out. I also have a loaf of bread baking. Last night to today, slept 10.5 hours. I’ll set an alarm for 2 hours… but I have no clue if I’ll wake up. @ 10:25pm Started this blog post around 9:50pm. Still awake, Continue reading
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Letters To My Mom – Sometimes The World Needs To Stop
So, I had to put Mixx down. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be. I never thought I’d pen anything like this as a letter to my mother. But… Losing this particular pet was difficult. For context, my mother died in 2019, and she was very fond of my first cat Continue reading
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right now, im not so sure… ~ j.l Continue reading
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I’m Not That Bitter… An Apparent Storytelling Manifesto
So… I like to tell myself that I’m not angry or bitter over this, but the fact that I consulted Copilot on anything tells you something. I am sensitive about my writing at times and just want some reassurance. Unfortunately, none of my family or even friends are willing or able to provide that. I Continue reading
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Broken Vases
I don’t often write much of what or how I’m feeling. A least not recently, not since I started doing the daily prompts. Not in my blog posts at least. Do I?? I’ve been using a paper bound journal to help ground myself. I’m having a bad night… and I have no one I can Continue reading
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Be Careful What You Ask For
I’m so confused right now. I took a hiatus off writing to give myself a chance to rest and relax. Instead, it’s starting to look like the opposite. I have views but only 1 comment. Am I begging for them? I’m not trying to, but there is nothing there at all. Most of my reviews Continue reading
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I Cannot Capitulate (Public)
Preface: Despite the most recent battle I’ve had the last 6 years, I’ve finally come to the conclusion that my value does not depend on an arbitrary identity that I should have had. Did I want that identity? With all my heart I did, but that’s not my reality. I’ve had a very good friend Continue reading
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This Seems To Be A Repeat, But Here We Go Again – And Yes, It Still Really Hurts
I had an option to definitely live or to most definitely die. Horribly. I’m certain that I’ve answered this question before. I’ve had to deal with feelings of inadequacy. I’ve had to deal with feeling that I wasn’t fully a woman anymore. I have cried many tears, many times over this. I hate any questions Continue reading
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Random Inklings
September 28, 2024 @ 10:59PM … Never thought I would see the day when I’d be happy to have a supply of prunes. Times are ‘a changing. — October 2, 2024 @ 1:12AM … Forgot this was here. Finally made gravy and yesterday stated that my day was boring. The whole day. Cos it was. Continue reading
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