mood swings – Hey, Miss J!

February 10, 2024

Oh No…

Here I am, wondering why I feel like my brain won’t shut off and why on earth I’m running on less than three hours of sleep a day… I’m going through mania again. I think… the last time I did this, it was the same thing. I’m on a mood stabilizer, but I do know Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

advice, anxiety, bad advice, bipolarism, depression, frustration, frustrations, life in chaos, mania, medication, mental health, mental illness, mood swings, moods, realizations, schedule, updates

July 9, 2023

I Broke My Watch

I’m not exactly sure why it happened, just that it did happen. Course, I’ve bumped into things before, but this time… the heart rate stopped registering correctly. I tried three or four different methods to reset it. Hard reboot. Clearing user data. Uninstalling, then reinstalling. Resetting the device to factory standards through the watch… None Continue reading

Author Dabbles, Introspection

food, life in chaos, mental health, mood swings, tech issues, updates

June 18, 2023

Can Anyone Play?

Does it matter who it is? Isn’t it fine? I’m worried right now… but not as much as I used to. I felt almost frantic most of the day… I recognize it now as my mania acting up again. I think I’ve been off the rails for three days now. Without my manual… without my Continue reading

Introspection

anxiety, food, mania, mental illness, mood swings, updates

March 10, 2023

Promises, Promises

I can’t complain much about today. However, I am frustrated with myself. Since I didn’t get enough sleep last night, that threw everything else off today. I have fantastic news though… I have hot water again. I’m so happy! I look forward to a warm shower in the morning. I’m in the midst of loading Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

anxiety, bipolarism, childhood, depression, family, memories, mental illness, mood swings, PTSD, self awareness, self-esteem, trauma, writers

January 25, 2023

Fragility

10:57AM I feel exposed right now. Lost, alone and weak. I’ve been struggling with my memory all morning, traveling from room to room – only to forget what I was going to the room to begin with. I suppose this is just par for the course? My new meds are badly affecting my memory. 9:53PM Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

bipolarism, brain fog, depression, emotional, mania, memories, mental illness, mood swings, PTSD, self hatred, trauma, turmoil, writers

January 13, 2023

For Something Like What

It’s been a long day. I believe within the span of less than 4 hours, I visited 6 different locations and completed at least 3 errands. I’m hopeful that my new office items will help me tidy up my home office further. Right now, it’s quite a mess. For clarity, my bedroom doubles as my Continue reading

Introspection

errands, medication, mental health, mental illness, mood swings, odd sense of humor, writers

December 18, 2022

Ain’t Much Up There

Hey there! So… strange news. The “technical difficulties” proved to take a lot longer to fix than I had hoped. I was unable to log on to the internet on any browser except Internet Explorer. Turning off my VPN did nothing, nor did nearly crippling my security on the computer. I had this entire blog Continue reading

Check-In, Day By Day, Introspection, mental health

bipolarism, computers, IT, mania, memories, mental illness, mood swings, self worth

October 14, 2022

The Pitfalls Of Dependency

This post is partially NSFW near the bottom. You have been warned. I had a different idea for my title today. Potential options will be included below… somewhere. I chose otherwise because I just found what I wrote this morning, while waiting to see my psychiatrist. It went like this: “@10:10am today. I forgot where Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

anxiety, dependency, depression, medication, mental health, mental illness, mood swings, orgasm, sexual dysfunction, withdrawal