mental illness

April 22, 2023

…?

I’m not even sure what to say right now. I’m racing through my chore list tonight… all because I want to be able to write something… anything. I’m beginning to feel an itching sensation inside my skull. It’s hard to explain… but it’s powerful. It’s a compulsion. I want to put my hands down and Continue reading

Introspection

addiction, bipolarism, chemical dependency, chores, content creation, creativity, depression, disappointments, family, fiction, friends, frustration, life in chaos, mental illness, pain, writers
April 17, 2023

Sutures

Today I vented. I mean really, seriously vented. I was upset, frustrated and angry over what I was going through. It was stuff that I haven’t mentioned on here. So, I chose one of my closest friends and asked her if I could unload. What makes really good friends is that they’re willing to listen Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

chores, disappointments, dreams, family, friendship, life in chaos, lists, medication, mental illness, orgasm, real friends, regrets, sexual dysfunction, side effect, sleep apnea, sleep deprivation, updates
April 16, 2023

Thick Or Thin

Of course, I’m listening to one of the Canadian singers I started to listening to years ago. The major one – and this sounds odd – but I visited her hometown in April 2001… That one was Celine Dion. One of the music stores we visited had a massive section in the back of dedicated Continue reading

Introspection

childhood, family, frustrations, mental illness, music, PTSD, self awareness, self conscious, trauma
April 12, 2023

Escape The Beginning

I think I’m starting to sort of get the edge on what my daily “tasks” are. However, I’m still combating against the ‘midday’ fatigue. It’s the sucky kind that makes me almost literally pass out while I’m in the middle of doing something important. Or even watching something on my phone. I’ve been dropping my Continue reading

Introspection

bipolarism, fatigue, frustration, medication, mental illness, side effect, sleep deprivation
March 26, 2023

And This Is Why I Excel At Failure

… I wish I could say it was a silly story… or just a made-up scenario. Unfortunately, I felt as if I was looking back at myself in time. I suppose the me that has already unpacked so much – with confidence – on my blog still has much to deal with. Things I thought Continue reading

Author Dabbles, Introspection

anger, authors, bipolarism, depression, fiction, mental illness, self awareness, self conscious, self worth, therapy, writers
March 16, 2023

Agents And Heirs

Tonight is going much smoother, I think. I’m still going through something emotionally, but unlike in the past, I am working hard not to sink into a depression. Many things happen in life… that none of us have control over. Instead of beating myself up like I have in the past – I’ve stepped back Continue reading

Introspection

disappointments, friends, friendship, frustrations, loss, mental illness, plans, schedule, writers
March 10, 2023

Promises, Promises

I can’t complain much about today. However, I am frustrated with myself. Since I didn’t get enough sleep last night, that threw everything else off today. I have fantastic news though… I have hot water again. I’m so happy! I look forward to a warm shower in the morning. I’m in the midst of loading Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

anxiety, bipolarism, childhood, depression, family, memories, mental illness, mood swings, PTSD, self awareness, self-esteem, trauma, writers
March 8, 2023

Unquenched Thirst

Today was a very good one. I’ve been attempting to keep up with the demands of my scheduled ‘chore’ lists. ‘Cept I think I was early today. Was spose to take out trash tomorrow… so I guess I can check it off the list ahead of time? It can be a lot. The list that Continue reading

Check-In, Introspection, mental health

assignments, chores, home, humor in little things, lists, mental illness, schedule, time crunch, updates, writers
March 7, 2023

100% Match

At current, I’m half freezing to death in here. I wanted to push it and stay up late… cleaning. However, I realized that I just need to change up my bedsheets, put on a quilt and go to bed. A lot happened today. Lots of good things. Got a huge hunk of my office and Continue reading

Introspection

chores, cleaning, day to day, depression, life journey, mental illness, writing
March 3, 2023

HAHAHAHAHA!

I love Chicago. Don’t you? By that, I don’t mean the location, nor am I referring to the musical of the same name. Instead, I’m going through my catalogue of music by them. It’s funny in a way. Much of the music I enjoy the most come from the 1980s to early 2000s. Though, I Continue reading

Check-In, Day By Day, Introspection, mental health, Non-Dabble Authory Dabbles

anxiety, bipolarism, cooking, depression, entertainment, fanfiction, fatigue, fibromyalgia, food, mental illness, music, sleep schedules, Spider-Man, writers, X-Men