life in chaos
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Stringed Together Rhapsodies
I’m… Irritated, angry, frustrated, a bit jaded and distressed. I told a friend of mine today that a decade ago, I never saw my life going the way that it has. There were things that I should have done when I had the physical strength to… things that I can’t really do now. But… At… Continue reading
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Funny Story…
I was already a homebody before the pandemic. When Covid came though, I pretty much turned into a recluse. I don’t leave home often, and when I do… I’m always worried about getting sick from someone. My immune system was garbage before all of this, and I would catch colds very easily. Oh, I also… Continue reading
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Goodness Knows It Hasn’t Been That Long
So, I’m currently stuck suffering again. It feels like I’ve been dealing with intestinal problems for a week, but in reality, it’s been about 2½ days. I’ve thought long and hard about what happened in January, about how I might have had a TIA. And knowing that they don’t always show up at all on… Continue reading
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Alls Noms That Ends Nom
I was trying to avoid eating so late. I also under normal circumstances have the meat I’ll be eating thawed out and ready to go. Didn’t happen today. Also got some super strange news about my body, and I now have a lot of appointments to schedule. I’m not happy about this. I hate being… Continue reading
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Soft Spoken Words
I’m not tired. That sucks. But I think I had a weird semi-nap today. I also unfortunately had my dinner late, so I have to sit up to try and mitigate my chances of having terrific heartburn. And by terrific, I mean absolutely terrible. I did most of my chores today, but my left knee… Continue reading
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The End Of The Good Times
This all depends. Are we talking about the Erikson model of life stages? If so, I’d say that I miss Intimacy vs Isolation. Also known as young adulthood. I know that I’m not an old adult by any means, but I feel like I’m crouched right on the edge of middle age. Though I… Continue reading
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Recalibrating
I completely forgot that I was supposed to get a phone call from the doctor and not an in office visit today. Which means I ended up at the doctor’s office without an actual appointment. Now, the doctor still took me in and saw me regardless. She explained that my dosing schedule was throwing things… Continue reading
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And It Continues
trying to pull myself together tonight. Will not be easy, but worth it. I hope. ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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1-2-3 HEAVE
Yup. Still very much manic. I want to get the cleaning stuff done already. My sinuses are 10x better when I dust and vacuum. Still dealing with racing thoughts… unfortunately. I keep promising myself that either I get a good night’s sleep or I’ll go and clean up the entire house. Then, I decide on… Continue reading
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