Hey, Miss J!

I’m…

Irritated, angry, frustrated, a bit jaded and distressed.

I told a friend of mine today that a decade ago, I never saw my life going the way that it has. There were things that I should have done when I had the physical strength to… things that I can’t really do now.

But… At least, I still have the time—I hope—to get quite a bit accomplished.

In terms of my writing, I’m still trying to get an idea as to what to change OA to. I feel so bad because I have 12 poorly written chapters up on ff.net and none on AO3. The direction that fanfic was going in has been lost over the past four years.

In terms of my food, I’m working to learn to make new snacks. I now have a ridiculously expensive bag of almond flour and have been experimenting making almond crackers. My aim is to make something like what I buy at the grocery store.

If I had a proper food processor, I would be making my own peanut butter. Maybe I can budget for one…?

In terms of exercise, I’m attempting to get back into doing chores regularly in here. That’ll get me used to moving again. The problem I’m running into is a time conflict. Conflict between assignments and meetings, making sure that I eat, making sure I try to balance my budget and time… and sometimes there is a lack somewhere.

I do have occupational therapy exercises to do twice a day. I’ve also obtained a chair aerobics video which I’ll be looking into soon as well. When I do the walking DVDs, my hips start off feeling tight and don’t loosen up at all by the end of the walk.

Maybe it’s my sleeping position? Though I did have an abrupt transition from an occupation where I was always on my feet to… uh…

This.

IDK. I’m going to look into doing something to loosen my hips up, because it makes moving even more difficult.

~J. Lyst

I’m not looking forward to the discussion I need to have with my GP soon… Not at all.