life in chaos
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Sorrowful Torment
One of my close friends died today. I am not sure what else I can say beyond that. I am grateful that she is not suffering anymore, but it does not make her loss any less painful. Thankfully, she can rest in peace now. Without being so sick and in pain all the time. I… Continue reading
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Concepts With Silver
I still have days when my mood goes down. What I like so much about my mood stabilizer is that I can’t go down but so far. I never linger there. It’s very nice… a wonderful change from what I’m used to. I’m still getting used to having clarity of thought. While I’m still fretting… Continue reading
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I’m not even sure what to say right now. I’m racing through my chore list tonight… all because I want to be able to write something… anything. I’m beginning to feel an itching sensation inside my skull. It’s hard to explain… but it’s powerful. It’s a compulsion. I want to put my hands down and… Continue reading
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Twisted Joints & Broken Promises
So… I’m pretty sure I wrenched my ankle just by being alive. Though I have been traveling up and down the stairs quite rapidly the last few days. Today, I decided to order out for lunch/dinner. I ended up finding a fantastic Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman fanfiction and it kept me so distracted that I… Continue reading
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Accepting The Depths
I’m slowly coming to terms with the fact that at times, I need things a bit bigger to read. So… I have this document currently at 120%… but it’s not exactly enough. However 150% is fantastic! My day wasn’t bad, even though it started off kind of on the wrong foot. I woke up so… Continue reading
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Come Down
It’s 3:55pm right now, and I can’t help but be furious. At myself and the transit system. I needed a locksmith. The man fixed everything quickly and for a good price, but then I encountered two severely late buses. So late in fact that by the time I got to my appointment, I was 16… Continue reading
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Foreigners And Fish
Today was pretty good, the evening not so much, but the earlier parts of today were fantastic. There’s a lot I need to do in my interpersonal relationships, both with my friends and other people. As for my family… Well, I’m still trying to figure out how to unpack that. I still have PTSD and… Continue reading
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Wonderful Day
Even though the day didn’t start off on the right note, it’s ending on one. Due to the fact that I have two people coming over to help me this weekend, I decided that I would just finally clean up my house fully. Little did I know that my bedroom would prove to be the… Continue reading
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