day to day
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I Cannot Capitulate (Public)
Preface: Despite the most recent battle I’ve had the last 6 years, I’ve finally come to the conclusion that my value does not depend on an arbitrary identity that I should have had. Did I want that identity? With all my heart I did, but that’s not my reality. I’ve had a very good friend… Continue reading
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This Seems To Be A Repeat, But Here We Go Again – And Yes, It Still Really Hurts
I had an option to definitely live or to most definitely die. Horribly. I’m certain that I’ve answered this question before. I’ve had to deal with feelings of inadequacy. I’ve had to deal with feeling that I wasn’t fully a woman anymore. I have cried many tears, many times over this. I hate any questions… Continue reading
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Fuck? Like Fo Sho!
I never thought I would state this… At least not use the word here. Fuck. That is the word I would ban. Because people are using it for almost everything now. Fuck is used to compose almost entirely incoherent sentences… with a few real words in the middle. Not to mention what actions it actually… Continue reading
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Of Course, Right?
Since I’m back to writing again, my biggest challenge will be to not run myself ragged to punch out chapters. I’m about to release the next chapter for NtC after I finish up and do a quick (Ha!) editing session. Are there other bigger things than that? Of course. But that stuff is a lot… Continue reading
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Sometimes Life?
Sometimes, being awake and alive can be boring to me. It’s not because I hate my life, but moreso that I’m so restricted in what I can do now. So there are not many things I can do for entertainment anymore. Social media is extremely boring. Like YT and TikToc, you keep scrolling, wasting time… Continue reading
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It’s Complicated
It depends on what sort of news it is. I’m waiting for test results that should be delivered by tomorrow. No matter the result, I’m gonna need some time to myself for a few days. If it’s great, amazing and fantastic news, I’ll share it with the main person involved after I get myself together.… Continue reading
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Back, Then Forward?
The only hobby I did that with was writing. It’s the only long-standing hobby I have. I gave up on it for a few months, had a melt down and went right back to it. As a sidenote, I’ve returned to Ao3. JulietteLyst | Archive of Our Own And also to FF.net JulietteLyst | FanFiction… Continue reading
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ON! And On And On And On And On And ONNN
It varied for me. Since I was young, I’ve come to appreciate, hate, then appreciate my life again. I see each day as a gift instead of a punishment. ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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Booo
I tend to have decent days until I start hurting. Pain. Pain is something that I complain about the most. “My hip!”, “My back!”, were things said today… loudly and with much sadness. I also just had a procedure on my foot, so that also hurts… ~J. Lyst Continue reading
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Plugging In The Options?
I’m overhauling the entire way that I manage the day-to-day chores in the house. The pages look very nice. Crisp. Clean. Broken up properly. That’s something I’m attempting to do differently. I’m also attempting to completely change up and overhaul my normal daily schedule. I could also set up a schedule for ‘batch’ cooking. That… Continue reading
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