chaos
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What Kind Of Energy
My mind is always pulsing with something. I get angry a lot because I don’t always do what I’m supposed to because of it. Being inspired supercharges my brain batteries. Music adds a shot of adrenaline. I can see a story in almost anything. I’m not even joking. If I wanted, I could pen a Continue reading
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Ohhh Geeze…
Let’s start off smooth… My mother had taken an early retirement from the government due to mental illness, and my father was spiraling deeper into an addiction to crack cocaine. Mom found work as a teacher’s assistant at the daycare center I went to. Dad was having more and more problems with not spending all Continue reading
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I’m About To Have The Craziest Redemption Story In The History Of Redemption Stories
… Once again, my impulsive decisions end up costing me. I have spent well over $200 at this point… to try and restore my old files for NtC. I want to resume writing that fanfic. What I should have done if I was having reservations…. Was download the files and set them aside for a Continue reading
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In ‘Tween
Warning: This post is not fully G or PG. I never try to be vulgar, but I do try to be honest about what I’m going through. I have very vivid dreams. There are two points… while I’m close to being asleep and right after I get up. In the case of the former, I Continue reading
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I Guess It’s Time To Be Honest?
I had an older friend of mine ask me this recently, but he was speaking of himself. I remember, there were three of us trying to figure out how to answer him. We know ourselves better than other people. I discussed as such earlier this year to a friend of mine. We don’t really know Continue reading
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Moo
I’m tired. I feel drained. But this chair is so comfortable… I want to play with my farm simulator. Unfortunately… whatever I would do today chore-wise? Got no energy. Had physical and occupational therapy today. … and now I’m watching “Brit Cops,” where the officers have just encountered a deranged man who is only dressed Continue reading
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Oooh IF Only…
For as long as I can remember, I wanted to be a published author. Well, I’ve accomplished that. Didn’t make much money at all. Second wish would have been to be a photographer or an artist. Can’t ever be a professional musician either. Not as a singer. Not as a percussionist. Not as a pianist. Continue reading
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What Kinds??
Biggest one is COVID19. Lingering one is COVID19. Ugh… I remember blizzards, Y2K, 9/11, BLIZZARDS, tornadoes and hurricanes they talked about on the news. That one time that my entire house shook due to a doggone earthquake in the area. BLIZZARDS. Lots and lots of school shootings. I also remember the DC Sniper. … Those Continue reading
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Irony… Thy Name Is Thee
Doing my chores. I wanna call it general laziness, because it’s really something I need to do. The main reason for the slump might be my mood dipping again. I’m trying to do better with taking my mood stabilizer on time. Along with the antidepressant in the day and my anxiety meds at night. Since Continue reading
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It Was A Scary Time
After my grandma died, my granddad needed help. I already lived with them, so I dropped out of college to get a job and help him pay bills. I also had to learn how to do laundry, grocery shop, cook more than eggs or oatmeal and balance a checkbook and deal with checks. Back then, Continue reading
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