Introspection
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Storytime??
In all honesty, for me, waking up and getting out of bed is a decision that teaches me. Every. Single. Day. Minor rant. For years, I have conceded in nearly everything that my family asked of me. Mind, this is my immediate family on dad’s side… because my immediate family on my mom’s side are… Continue reading
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Truly? Well…
I learned that people can be unnecessarily cruel. I learned about mob mentality. And I learned that people in authority tend not to help you unless there are consequences on them if they don’t act. ~J. Lyst I wish all I learned was academic… Continue reading
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Flight Or Flames
Oddly enough… I wanted to be an astronaut or a firefighter. I wanted to do something and be someone who was able to help others. Later on in life, that obviously never happened. Too many things. Too much stuff got in the middle of any plans I might have had. Now, I’m just a… …published… Continue reading
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How BPD =/= DID
I am bipolar, have major depressive disorder and anxiety. And… I have BPD, which is borderline personality disorder. It means that I have issues with being alone. I have issues controlling my mood, and I am very unstable in relationships. Often, I feel like I’m being attacked when I’m not. It’s hard for me to… Continue reading
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Still… Learning
I used to literally eat my feelings. I went from that to playing games all day and all night, crying excessively or just sleeping. Now… I’m still working on it. I stopped the all the time gaming binges. I’ve also stopped the food binges. I still sleep at times, cry, and I will also listen… Continue reading
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Be Careful What You Ask For
I’m so confused right now. I took a hiatus off writing to give myself a chance to rest and relax. Instead, it’s starting to look like the opposite. I have views but only 1 comment. Am I begging for them? I’m not trying to, but there is nothing there at all. Most of my reviews… Continue reading
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I Cannot Capitulate (Public)
Preface: Despite the most recent battle I’ve had the last 6 years, I’ve finally come to the conclusion that my value does not depend on an arbitrary identity that I should have had. Did I want that identity? With all my heart I did, but that’s not my reality. I’ve had a very good friend… Continue reading
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This Seems To Be A Repeat, But Here We Go Again – And Yes, It Still Really Hurts
I had an option to definitely live or to most definitely die. Horribly. I’m certain that I’ve answered this question before. I’ve had to deal with feelings of inadequacy. I’ve had to deal with feeling that I wasn’t fully a woman anymore. I have cried many tears, many times over this. I hate any questions… Continue reading
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Ha…. Hahahaha! Non! Try Again…
No. There is no way I could have ever been “destined” or “fated” to end up as messed up as I am. I am a person who is broken, and it would be cruel to have that as a sure eventuality for anyone. Saying that everything is “fated” or “destined” is incredibly offensive as an… Continue reading
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Door Repairs?
I have two cats at current, but over the course of the last 14 years, I’ve had nine cats. Not all at the same time, mind. My oldest cat is 21, so she’s outlived three of my cats. The others were rehomed. Two of them were rescued siblings. Over the course of many years, I’ve… Continue reading
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