Introspection
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Closer Together
No walk tonight, but was on point with my eating, which is fantastic. It was so annoying to count each and every single calorie today. Drove me nuts. I wanted to start biting into the side of my fridge today. I had a very big breakfast, but it was super healthy too. My lunch was… Continue reading
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Oh Bother…
I’m so surprised… and a bit disappointed. All this time, I’ve mentioned OA in my author notes in my fanfics… Yet, I just realized that OA is not even posted on AO3. Well, chapters 1-12 require rewrites and revisions. Extensive ones. So, I suppose while I’m “posting” the fanfic… very slowly… on AO3, I’ll be… Continue reading
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Is This Early?
That I wasn’t completely out of my mind, just sick from two different mental illnesses that parallel each other, then collide over and over again. Or maybe I am out of my mind… Sometimes, I feel like a stranger in my body. I probably need to talk to my psychiatrist again about that. https://healthmatters.nyp.org/understanding-difference-bipolar-borderline-personality-disorder I… Continue reading
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It Really Hurts
There’s a slew of them asked by different people, but all tied to a single theme. “Are you pregnant?” “Have you ever been pregnant?” “Are you planning to get pregnant?” “Do you have any children?” “Do you want to have children someday?” Doctor’s visits, meeting new people… It just goes on and on. I used… Continue reading
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Looking Back
Today was a bit rougher than I expected. I was trying to schedule doctor’s appointments and referrals… and I started getting disoriented and forgetting things. It’s upsetting. In mind, I had a mental picture of this very tasty food I like that has cabbage, carrots, and this creamy white sauce. Yet… It took me five… Continue reading
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Alls Noms That Ends Nom
I was trying to avoid eating so late. I also under normal circumstances have the meat I’ll be eating thawed out and ready to go. Didn’t happen today. Also got some super strange news about my body, and I now have a lot of appointments to schedule. I’m not happy about this. I hate being… Continue reading
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Soft Spoken Words
I’m not tired. That sucks. But I think I had a weird semi-nap today. I also unfortunately had my dinner late, so I have to sit up to try and mitigate my chances of having terrific heartburn. And by terrific, I mean absolutely terrible. I did most of my chores today, but my left knee… Continue reading
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The End Of The Good Times
This all depends. Are we talking about the Erikson model of life stages? If so, I’d say that I miss Intimacy vs Isolation. Also known as young adulthood. I know that I’m not an old adult by any means, but I feel like I’m crouched right on the edge of middle age. Though I… Continue reading
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Recalibrating
I completely forgot that I was supposed to get a phone call from the doctor and not an in office visit today. Which means I ended up at the doctor’s office without an actual appointment. Now, the doctor still took me in and saw me regardless. She explained that my dosing schedule was throwing things… Continue reading
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