self awareness
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What Should Have Been
I had an epic idea that I had considered while in the shower. Did that idea ever come to fruition? No. Did I think to record them? No. The echoes of those words continue to linger though. They tickled at the edges of my consciousness. I’m in limbo at current, stuck in a place that Continue reading
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It’s Funny, But Not?
Solitaire. I can play solitaire for hours at a time. Or Happy Color. I have a folder on my phone of my “Relaxing Games.” In order: “Einstein Riddle,” “Finch,” “Happy Color,” “Solitaire,” “Sudoku.” I’m not a fan of math, but Sudoku is helping my concentration a lot. In order (Again): Einstein Riddle – Logic puzzle. Continue reading
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…. Hrm…
Were I ten years younger, I would have a lot of things to say. With the current way my health is trending though… I just hope I’m still alive in 10 years. ~J. Lyst Morbid but honest answer. Continue reading
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I Will Never…
…Give up. Though navigating through years of neglected mental health almost led me in the wrong direction, I am so grateful to have medical intervention to help me. Something that I tell my friends now—since I have the experience—is that there is no shame in asking for help when you need it. I was so Continue reading
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Whispers From The Past
Life is a funny thing, you know? But not in the “haha” kind of way. Sometimes I look at the sheer amount of things I can and have been able to experience — and I’m glad. Then I think about things I WANT to do… and I feel sad. There always seems to be so Continue reading
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Cats And Wires
I’m losing weight. I wasn’t even paying attention. I haven’t been tracking my food at all. While I was contemplating that today, I realized that I didn’t have lunch. I barely ate anything for breakfast. I’m out of eggs. I’m not in the mood to make and am out of bread. I’m mostly out of Continue reading
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Lost In The (Pasta) Sauce
I’m thinking that hopefully, I’ll be able to get into a regular routine of Exercise and PT very soon! I’m noticing that when I clean… unless it’s a deeper than normal clean – I’m done pretty quick. I need to try to figure out when to do the deeper cleans. Probably after I’m done with Continue reading
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How I Got To Where I Am
Often, I feel when I look back over the course of my life – I wonder who would have written it. It’s the same for many people, and they don’t even realize… just how precious their life story is. How utterly unique! Each one of us is unique. Even identical twins have different perspectives. I Continue reading
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Pilots And Blacksmiths
I’m staring at my curtains and asking myself a lot of questions. While it was great that I finally pulled off the horrid tannish/brown things that had been there for decades… I’m not joking about that. I also revealed a very nice set of sheer curtains. Now, it looks like my background glows in the Continue reading
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