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Based On Recents…
Security can at times be an adventure. I’ve recently acquired a home security system. In the time since I’ve had it, I’ve had two people attempt to pull my front door open. One of them, unfortunately, was a local politician. I’ve met her in person. She’s very mean. And claimed she never came past my Continue reading
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I Would Call It Paranoia Really…
Before I had my stroke, the main thing I was worried about were people committing fraud to steal my property. Now? I’m afraid to be alive. Because as long as I am alive, I know that my life can end abruptly and painfully. I’m worried that I’ll die with no arrangements at all and my Continue reading
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Funny Story…
I was already a homebody before the pandemic. When Covid came though, I pretty much turned into a recluse. I don’t leave home often, and when I do… I’m always worried about getting sick from someone. My immune system was garbage before all of this, and I would catch colds very easily. Oh, I also Continue reading
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Where Or Who Are You At? (Pre-Write)
Ah… Monday. The kind of day to venture forth and do the things… the things that do the do! I hope I’m still alive by the time this blog post and podcast are read. The idea sounds dark and so depressing, but with the speed that my health is deteriorating… I’ve started to feel extremely Continue reading
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A Long Drive, Two Times
Feeling disoriented today. Doctor sent me a prescription for a new medication. The sensation I get, suddenly feeling heat in the back of my head… only to feel it travel down to all my limbs… It’s so strange. The new medication I’m on is supposed to help control the tremors I’ve developed in my hands. Continue reading
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Hyped Off A Feeling
For the longest time, I’ve wondered and dreamt about what it would be like if I could build my own home. I got hooked into the Sims 4 back in 2019 after my surgery since I figured I could at least drown out my feelings in the game. Well, now I still wonder what it Continue reading
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Incapable Of Innocence
You come to know how bad things are… when you pray in gratitude for making it into your home. Which is exactly what I did tonight. I thanked God Almighty that I was able to get into my home safe and sound. I’ve felt tired and ill most of the day, so I delayed taking Continue reading
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Timeless
There was a time, quite some a while back really… where I could easily look back a few days or some months and remember what happened. Over time, that ability has gradually dwindled without notice until a friend of mine asked me how my week was going so far. After confirming – for the third Continue reading
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Sorrowful Torment
One of my close friends died today. I am not sure what else I can say beyond that. I am grateful that she is not suffering anymore, but it does not make her loss any less painful. Thankfully, she can rest in peace now. Without being so sick and in pain all the time. I Continue reading
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