addiction

December 31, 2024

Random Inklings

September 28, 2024 @ 10:59PM … Never thought I would see the day when I’d be happy to have a supply of prunes. Times are ‘a changing. — October 2, 2024 @ 1:12AM … Forgot this was here. Finally made gravy and yesterday stated that my day was boring. The whole day. Cos it was. Continue reading

Introspection

addiction, amusement, bipolarism, books, changes, day to day, dealing with change, decisions, depression, entertainment, fatigue, fiction, frustrations, health, joy, life, love, mental health, mental illness, stuff, suicide, updates, writers, writing
April 7, 2024

Fixin’ For A Fix

I didn’t realize just how messed up some of these episodes of “Intervention” are. Then… I thought about it. I have seen people on that show do lines off the lid of a toilet’s tank. I’ve also seen them pull water from inside the toilet bowl to dissolve and properly shoot up heroin. The idea Continue reading

Check-In, Introspection

addiction, eating disorder, frustrations, life in chaos, updates, writing
April 3, 2024

Trust The Process

This is odd. I’m currently nibbling on some really good chicken fried rice and scratching my head. My obsession with “My 600-lb Life” is almost unhealthy. But… my attachment to “Intervention” is even stronger. I see how much my life aligned with and at times… parallelled the lives of the people who turned to drugs Continue reading

cooking, Introspection

addiction, beef, cooking, eating disorder, food, life journey, meat, mistreatment, obsession, reality, trauma, trying to cope, updates
November 29, 2023

Tears & Thorns

I had a frustrating and horrific nightmarish time in the bathroom. Nothing more on that later. I’m once again a little behind… but that’s moreso due to the size of my lesson. As for my editing… I was hoping to have all five new chapters for NtC up, and I wanted to have all 7 Continue reading

Author Dabbles, Check-In, Day By Day, Introspection

addiction, art is fun, brain fog, fatigue, frustration, issues, trying to cope, updates, writers
November 23, 2023

Water From The Moon

@1:01AM, November 20, 2023 Once again, we’re pulling a near all-nighter. I also just realize that I forgot to take my nerve medication. Doggone it! After this brief snippet, I’ll go do that. I went ahead and plowed through the first chapter of C&R III. I’m uncertain if I’ll keep it as a short or Continue reading

Author Dabbles, Check-In, Day By Day, Introspection

addiction, fanfic, frustrations, life in chaos, matters of concern, NanoWrimo, updates, writers
May 10, 2023

A-N-G-E-R

Ohh, let me count the ways. I think the best way to describe my mood right now is irritated, agitated, sad… furious and grumpy. I’m angry. It was pretty bad earlier. I was screaming in the basement about what I was going to do. Do as much of one lesson as I can, then plot Continue reading

Introspection

addiction, eating disorder, food, frustrations, irritation, obsession
May 9, 2023

Constant Craving

I’m always always hungry. It’s a nightmare. Between food addiction or an eating disorder… I’m not sure which is worse. I unfortunately have both. This particular blog title is on brand… at least I think so. My doctor recently put me on prednisone. To help my lungs. Now, I’ve been on it before… but right Continue reading

Introspection

addiction, eating disorder, food, frustrations, hunger, medication
April 22, 2023

…?

I’m not even sure what to say right now. I’m racing through my chore list tonight… all because I want to be able to write something… anything. I’m beginning to feel an itching sensation inside my skull. It’s hard to explain… but it’s powerful. It’s a compulsion. I want to put my hands down and Continue reading

Introspection

addiction, bipolarism, chemical dependency, chores, content creation, creativity, depression, disappointments, family, fiction, friends, frustration, life in chaos, mental illness, pain, writers
August 14, 2022

Northern Winds

This one will be quick because I do have a limitation on my time tonight. There were many things I was scheduled to do today and just about all of them I did not do. This is becoming a weekend issue, where I literally run the gamut but never get everything done. So tonight, I’ll Continue reading

Introspection

addiction, disordered eating, eating disorder, food, reality
July 27, 2022

Addicted

So, I’m sitting here watching yet another episode of Intervention, debating purchasing the next season. One of my friends asked me why I watch shows like this. I told her what I’ve told everyone else. I watch these types of shows because I want to know why and how these people can fall so deeply Continue reading

Introspection

addiction, childhood, depression, intervention, mental health, restrictions