Introspection
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Patience Will End
When I look back on today, all I want to do is cry… I got nearly nothing at all done because I could barely move. The fatigue that has clung to me for days is so severe that I came close to collapsing twice in my kitchen today. I was literally rocking on my feet Continue reading
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Came Out Of Left Field
“I don’t have a brain like yours.” This was said by a male friend of mine last year during NanoWrimo. I asked to borrow his hands to type since I was having so much inflammation in my wrists and forearms. I stupidly took on a 20K alongside the 50K. He said he would, and I Continue reading
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Crunch
Current sitting and crunch’n’much on some veggies. With rrranch. My problem for months has been not eating nearly enough vegetables. At all. I think I had a two week period at one time where all I ate was bread and cheese. Now, I’m attempting to add more vegetables to my meals than not. I haven’t Continue reading
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Basking
Today was rough, to put it lightly. I was plagued with stabbing pain in my left calf and lower thigh for most of the day. Along with stabbing intestinal pain. It was so bad that I had to order my groceries. This time, I wasn’t as stupid and didn’t order via Amazon. Sure, Instacart costs Continue reading
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Closer Together
No walk tonight, but was on point with my eating, which is fantastic. It was so annoying to count each and every single calorie today. Drove me nuts. I wanted to start biting into the side of my fridge today. I had a very big breakfast, but it was super healthy too. My lunch was Continue reading
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Oh Bother…
I’m so surprised… and a bit disappointed. All this time, I’ve mentioned OA in my author notes in my fanfics… Yet, I just realized that OA is not even posted on AO3. Well, chapters 1-12 require rewrites and revisions. Extensive ones. So, I suppose while I’m “posting” the fanfic… very slowly… on AO3, I’ll be Continue reading
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Is This Early?
That I wasn’t completely out of my mind, just sick from two different mental illnesses that parallel each other, then collide over and over again. Or maybe I am out of my mind… Sometimes, I feel like a stranger in my body. I probably need to talk to my psychiatrist again about that. https://healthmatters.nyp.org/understanding-difference-bipolar-borderline-personality-disorder I Continue reading
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It Really Hurts
There’s a slew of them asked by different people, but all tied to a single theme. “Are you pregnant?” “Have you ever been pregnant?” “Are you planning to get pregnant?” “Do you have any children?” “Do you want to have children someday?” Doctor’s visits, meeting new people… It just goes on and on. I used Continue reading
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Looking Back
Today was a bit rougher than I expected. I was trying to schedule doctor’s appointments and referrals… and I started getting disoriented and forgetting things. It’s upsetting. In mind, I had a mental picture of this very tasty food I like that has cabbage, carrots, and this creamy white sauce. Yet… It took me five Continue reading
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