misslyst

April 23, 2023

Concepts With Silver

I still have days when my mood goes down. What I like so much about my mood stabilizer is that I can’t go down but so far. I never linger there. It’s very nice… a wonderful change from what I’m used to. I’m still getting used to having clarity of thought. While I’m still fretting… Continue reading

Introspection

bipolarism, depression, gratitude, instability, life in chaos, life journey, medication, mental illness, writers

April 22, 2023

…?

I’m not even sure what to say right now. I’m racing through my chore list tonight… all because I want to be able to write something… anything. I’m beginning to feel an itching sensation inside my skull. It’s hard to explain… but it’s powerful. It’s a compulsion. I want to put my hands down and… Continue reading

Introspection

addiction, bipolarism, chemical dependency, chores, content creation, creativity, depression, disappointments, family, fiction, friends, frustration, life in chaos, mental illness, pain, writers

April 21, 2023

Creation Of The End

I’m… right at that point when my spine starts screaming for mercy. Or I’m dehydrated… I’m uncertain yet. It’s good that I decided to stop when I did. I’ve surprised myself. Today, I’ve… She did not even notice. Ugh… Seriously. The components are cleaned, reconnected, and loaded for use tonight. Fresh towels… Yes! Cooked dinner.… Continue reading

Check-In, Introspection

chores, day to day, food, lists, stomach problems, time flies, time management, updates, writers

April 20, 2023

The Stronghold Pacifist

The definitions of a stronghold are: A place that has been fortified so as to protect it against attack. OR A place where a particular cause or belief is strongly defended or upheld. I’ve been told fairly often that my ideas or opinions make no sense. I’ve also been accused of being a soft pacifist.… Continue reading

Hobbies, Introspection

habit, happiness, life journey, medication, personality, self acceptance, self-esteem, updates, writers

April 19, 2023

Sorry… That’s Not The Best

@ 9:31AM I dislike it when people do that. I had the same problem myself, but I try to make a conscious effort to let other people speak. That’s all part of normal healthy conversation. First goal for today though… Food. The cat has already eaten, but I have not. @ 11:30PM My hopes! …… Continue reading

Check-In, Day By Day

life, stuff, updates

April 18, 2023

12 O’Clock On The Dot

@ 12:07PM Second time I was up though, I pulled on my eye mask and reattached the hose. Maybe this is because I remember what a friend of mine experienced. She said a supervisor kept ‘accidentally’ pressing her backside into her while passing back and forth behind her. @ 4:42PM And all these years, I… Continue reading

Check-In, Introspection

cats, chores, daily tasks, day to day, dreams, life, nightmares, pets, shopping, technical difficulties

April 17, 2023

Sutures

Today I vented. I mean really, seriously vented. I was upset, frustrated and angry over what I was going through. It was stuff that I haven’t mentioned on here. So, I chose one of my closest friends and asked her if I could unload. What makes really good friends is that they’re willing to listen… Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

chores, disappointments, dreams, family, friendship, life in chaos, lists, medication, mental illness, orgasm, real friends, regrets, sexual dysfunction, side effect, sleep apnea, sleep deprivation, updates

April 16, 2023

Thick Or Thin

Of course, I’m listening to one of the Canadian singers I started to listening to years ago. The major one – and this sounds odd – but I visited her hometown in April 2001… That one was Celine Dion. One of the music stores we visited had a massive section in the back of dedicated… Continue reading

Introspection

childhood, family, frustrations, mental illness, music, PTSD, self awareness, self conscious, trauma

April 15, 2023

Taskmaster

I can prefix this post in this manner. I am tired. Bone tired. Like, if you could see my bones, they’d be yawning super wide too. They’d also be droopy and a bit grumpy. I’ve managed to cover most items on my chore list – not including my errands – all of which I’ll address… Continue reading

Introspection