Hey, Miss J!

This is odd. I’m currently nibbling on some really good chicken fried rice and scratching my head. My obsession with “My 600-lb Life” is almost unhealthy.

But… my attachment to “Intervention” is even stronger. I see how much my life aligned with and at times… parallelled the lives of the people who turned to drugs to cope.

Addiction often has trauma at the core of it.

What they speak of the most is sexual abuse as children.

I had to deal with the same, but I think what kept me from turning to drugs and alcohol was the restrictions my grandparents put on my movements.

I’m grateful to this day for them doing that for me.

I did develop an eating disorder and an unhealthy fixation with food… and addiction to it.

I wasn’t shielded from everything in that sense.

However, exercising self-control and measuring stuff helps a lot. Since I’m now attempting to stick to my budget and all, I can’t actually afford to purchase takeout.

And since I want beef lo mein sooo badly, I’ll be resuming making my own pasta. The way I see it, I can make the pasta, cook then freeze it and then cook it up in batches when I want to have lo mein that night. The problem I might run into is having to refreeze the food after I cook it.

I have already painfully learned that extreme care needs to be taken when it comes to homemade goods. My breads are sliced up and immediately placed in the freezer.

For right now though, I have beef and ground turkey thawing in the fridge. Tomorrow—hopefully—I’ll be able to make burgers with the turkey and slice up & grill the beef in the George Foreman.

That grill is soo good! I made a grilled cheese last night and it was yummy.

See that obsession about food that I mentioned?

Yeah…

But food is so good though! And if I make my treats, it slows me down in eating them.

I have no microwave, and I still have some fear from previous attempts at cooking popcorn on the stove, so I use an air popper and double boiler to get buttery popcorn.

A friend of mine mentioned croissants recently… I have no idea if I’ll attempt to make those. Because they take hours and hours and so on to make properly.

If I do though, I’m making a big batch and freezing them up.

Hmm… maybe I’ll make a chicken and cabbage stir fry for breakfast tomorrow?

Eh…

I’ll figure it out.

~Obsessively Yours, J. Lyst