Hey, Miss J!

Apparently… I do have readers on fanfiction.net. I was completely unaware, seeing as the viewer ticker is borked.

So… I guess I’ll have to rescind my decision to up and dip out on that website. Fortunately, I had the idea in mind… already… to have the documents in different files. I’m currently going down the line with my editing. If I’m particularly insane tonight, I’ll try to plow through at least 5 more chapters. Can I do all 9 remaining?

No clue! I have to read as I edit… and these chapters are not short. I have a wee notebook that I write things down on… to keep up with consistency for its own sake.

I’ve once again decided to cut communication with my family. However now… it’s a full disconnect.

No videochats, no phone calls… and no text/picture messages either.

It will hurt me at first – this I know for a certainty… but over time, eventually I’ll be fully adapted to the silence on that end.

Again.

And the stable mental solid ground I had before? It should start coming back.

I finally remembered the right word too.

Because I’ve been destabilizing for a while now, the doctor told me that instead of my anxiety meds being optional, they are now mandatory.

I explained to her that I listened to her advice and now my brain is in an uproar again.

She was genuinely shocked because of how severe my reaction was. She explained that she thought it would be a good idea because they’re family. I explained that “they’re family” means absolutely nothing when the people themselves are awful.

I easily see how the contact was negatively impacting my personality too. So… away from them again I go!

I look forward to the editing. I tried doing the Sims 4 rent thing… but—eh. It’s a bit odd, and I never see the landlord get a payment. Not even 1 payment. It’s ridiculous. I also haven’t seen the tenants on my end pay one cent. Maybe it’s paid at the end of the week? IDK.

I decided not to think too much about it.

I’ll return to the sims eh… at some point.

Oddly enough, the “Rent” expansion pack killed my desire to play the game. Since it’s so stupid…

~J. Lyst