Hey, Miss J!

I personally think that a collaboration between Kenny G and Michel Bolton is a wonderful thing.

Really… a collab between Kenny G and anyone else is gonna be good.

Now then… on NTC, I’m on page 19 of Chapter 19.

Ha!

Just two more new chapters after this one. I was worried at first that I wouldn’t be that motivated to work on the chapter because I struggled so much with the new backlogged chapters. Then… the reasons sunk in.

I literally blew through writing two chapters that both go between different chapters much further back in the storyline of NtC. I’m normally great with filler that has substance… but even I was stretching my own sense of “reasonability” with the latter half of the last backlog chapter.

As a consequence, I’ll have to do a speed edit with the chapters around them to properly accommodate them.

Also, I’ll have to sit here and stare at the screen while doing edits. Will no doubt have a secondary window with a copy/paste and go between both documents, copying over and then fixing the original text.

One of my readers wants me to add in a MA or E rated additional chapter of just… sex.

I would have done that without hesitation… back in 2013. Or even 2015. However, this is 2023, and I don’t have the desire at all of writing sexually explicit content. This is why I’m reviewing all of the chapters of C&R. To avoid that.

I have C&R – The short, C&R II – Chapters 1-5, and C&R III – Another short. They’re all under the same series though, found mostly on AO3.

Under no circumstances will I return to FF.net aside from the edited chapters. At the end of the ‘current’ chapter 18, I will note that: “Additional chapters of this fanfiction will only be found on ArchiveOfOurOwn. It’s a difficult decision, but between the issues with email and the frustration of trying to update chapters, I’ve decided to tap out of this site. Though Fanfiction.net was nice while it lasted, all good things—I suppose—must come to an end.”

I have no honest clue if there’s controversy or chaos on fanfiction.net’s forums. I just recently found out that it existed on NanoWrimo’s forums. If AO3 has it, I honestly don’t care.

I found out that I’m more productive creatively without having to deal with other people blathering on about things that I really don’t care or want to know about.

I thought about it last night… did I miss the Discord server I was kicked out of?

Oh, btw, if you weren’t aware, I did get kicked out of a Discord server last year. The reasons? Nothing that’s important enough now to even mention. I will note that before it—I was becoming distressed over many of the things that were being posted on there.

At first, I enjoyed the writing sprints, but then I started believing that I couldn’t write properly without one.

Then I got annoyed at all the constant dings from people posting in other subtopics.

Then I got angry over the content of the subtopics. Or subforums? Whatever they’re called. I didn’t like them.

Now, on proper medication and with a better lid on my mouth… Heh. Seriously, I’ve learned a lot more in terms of being tactful. With all that stuff on board, I am doing a lot better than before joining that platform.

In retrospect, I also realize that I never should have agreed to go to a place like that.

Ever.

It doesn’t matter if I learned a few tricks in editing. I would have eventually started learning it on my own.

Do I miss anyone I was around back then or those I wrote with?

I know it sounds bad, but I really don’t. I literally miss no one that I wrote with or collaborated with on the Discord.

I don’t need anyone helping or trying to grant the ‘urge’ to rise over a hump in my writing. If I want to do it, I eventually will. It’s much like food for me. If I want to eat, eventually, I’ll have to cook something. Financially can’t afford to keep buying premade meals.

Soo….

Yeah.

Aside from that, now I’m getting irritable with family again.

I’ve no clue why I listened to my doctor about resuming phone communication past text messages.

Why would you call someone, let them call you back after 5 minutes… and then tell them you have something else to do and will call them back later?

Honestly.

That ‘call back’ never comes either.

I’m not in the mood to chase behind someone who doesn’t want to talk to me.

So, text messages it will be.

I’ve also been informed that a family member I was doing well to avoid—will not be around me on a weekly basis. For a few hours.

Via Zoom.

I do not intend to engage in any conversation at all.

I was also told the exact day it was supposed to happen. Like within the first few minutes. I do not like surprises like that.

Hmm… Was this blog post a rant? I certainly hope not. However I am aware that I could have spent this time writing another 800+ words for NtC… considering this blog post is close to 900.

~J. Lyst

897 to be exact.