Hey, Miss J!

I knew something was wrong when my desire to sleep was stronger than my desire to update my blog tonight.

I have a notebook labeled ‘Days,’ and I’ve been using it to log what I did over the course of the day. Why am I doing this? Because otherwise I won’t remember.

Instead of my usual blog, I’ll be posting here things that I’ll be writing in my notebook to ‘catch up’ tomorrow.

For October 14^th, was burnt out, extremely tired and sore. It’s entirely my own fault because of my terrible time management of late. I’m grateful that I paid for ‘AppBlock’ to physically restrain myself from wasting time with playing video games and going onto YouTube.

• I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised the amount of havoc I can cause myself when left unchecked.
• Sometimes, I feel like I’ve put myself into a well-insulated bubble. I have literally 0 idea as to what’s going on one day to the next, unless a friend mentions what’s in the news. I know that some of it might have a detrimental effect on me – knowing too much. Life in this world these days is more stressful than I’ve ever experienced in the last twenty years.
  • I have not changed. I am not a fan of hearing about people being robbed, people being harmed – killed. I’ve never been a fan of politics and the less I know in that regard, the better.

After my meeting, one of my friends took myself and another compadre to Costco, so we could venture onwards and obtain snacks. I feel bad calling her that, since one of my closest friends is like a mom to me, but she worked as our driver, which I’m grateful for. I’m still sad that I can’t find either Beyond Meat burgers or Brownie Brittle.

• My other friend and I… I have a LOT of friends. Like a lot a lot. We went to checkout, and she offered to buy my snacks.
  • Of course, in my notebook, I’ll mention their actual names – since that too is tied to my actual name offline.
  • Was nice to have my snacks paid for.

It seemed… that just the short walk through Costco was enough to aggravate my already aching and sort back to the point I wanted to scream. When I staggered through my front door – and mind, to not worry them, I forced myself to walk normally… Soon as that door closed and was locked, I started groaning and struggled to my room. Fell back on my bed and passed out. (I probably mentioned that in yesterday’s blog.) Had a phone call come in, I apologized to one of my older friends and explained I needed to go to sleep. The spirit was certainly willing to order from CVS to get some ibuprofen to help. I’ve just used Tylenol for years, but that’s not anti-inflammatory so… Even though I wanted to order, because I know I couldn’t manage the walk… I also doubted I’d be able to stay up long enough for the order to arrive and not be stolen. Also, just today remembered I need to reach out to another older one who has been ill for many years…

• A friend who’d borrowed the car called and asked if I needed anything, since I’d mentioned needing to get to CVS. I mentioned snacks and some stuff from there and sent some cash to help with gas.
• When she made it here, she told me it was silly that I kept thanking her even though I let her use the car. I explained that when I was less ill, I didn’t exactly like driving, but if I had to, I’d jump right in the car and head off. Even if driving wasn’t stressful for her, it is for me.
  • She also told me the car handles very well and rides so smooth.
  • When you take care of vehicles, no matter the age, the run well.
• I was up late playing Sims 4. Wanted to try out that childbirth mod again. I was up all night playing. Once again, when the sim was screaming, I started crying too. They already had four kids. Their first son, which was followed by a set of twins – shock and horror because those three are extremely close in age. They were struggle to take care of newborn twins and an infant son who liked to chew on his foot. Then the wife got pregnant with their fourth child.
• The most energy was poured into the oldest and out of his siblings, he’s the only one who has completed every milestone and maxed out every skill he could as a toddler.
• With my villagers, all the kids max out their toddler skills, but there are a lot less of them born at a time.
• The ‘new’ family though… their son grew into a kid, the twins turned into toddlers, the wife had the fourth kid and before the twins were kids, she was scrambling to care for their infant daughter and carrying the fifth kid.
• The juggling is real. Since then, the oldest son does the laundry along with his younger brother and sister who are twins. The youngest sister became a toddler and their baby brother is still an infant.
• Because the childbirth mod is… well… my mother sim ends up using a breast pump like every four hours and there’s a massive stockpile of fresh breastmilk in the fridge. Except on a few occasions, their kids have all been either breastfed or fed breastmilk from a bottle.
• The excess is sold to the milk bank and there’s a lot of excess.
• The sim now has permanent stretchmarks from the last pregnancy and managed to collect enough aspiration points to buy the ‘lean’ potion. She gained so much weight between pregnancies and with the last one, it was extreme.

For October 15^th, whew. I want to say the bulk was mentioned the day before, but the day sort of blending in.

• I slept hard and long and late and ended up playing more of this particular puzzle. Dropped it once I saw how much real money would need to go into it. I can stick to my mostly free Clue game. I think it only cost $2.99 to purchase the game outright.
• Back to Sims 4. All of the kids are active. Everyone works with keeping the household automatic vacuums cleaned, the trash picked up, plumbing and counters cleaned. The toddler is about to age up into a child. The oldest son is about to age up into a teen. Their father aready aged up into an adult and their mom is some days till then.
  • The mom has been pregnant so much and so often, along with the last ridiculously long labor, that she’s lagging nearly 14 days behind her husband, even though she was a day or so older when they first met.

Where I am now – It is Sunday evening, and I feel extremely tired right now. So it’s time for bed. Won’t be touching the Sims again until next Sunday, and it’ll be limited then.

• A friend had texted me about Zoom earlier today. I was so sleepy that I completely missed it.

Matter of fact, since I’ve typed so much out, I’m going to just print out and paste this section onto the pages.

The cats are still alive, as far as I know. I had my medication extremely late today and barely ate anything, except some beef, cheese, a peach and a few snacks. Gonna nibble on some of that stuff I got from Costco. It’s a strange mixture between almond/chocolate and sea salt.

Kills the salt and sweet craving in one fell swoop.

SO… More ibuprofen, my snack and then bed.

I do believe I’ve been dealing with a bout of depression. The back problems exacerbated everything though.

This is over long, so that’s that. I think I fit everything in. Oh! My friend from Saturday brought the car back and told me she’d be willing to borrow it again if possible.

I’m still grateful that she went through so much effort to wash and cleaned it up inside too.

Turns out all those repairs recently came in handy. I also made sure to get permission from my insurance company beforehand. Didn’t want to risk anything.

Night!

~J. Lyst