Hey, Miss J!

Well, I’m still sick today. Though it’s thankfully not as severe. The intense dizziness I felt yesterday, along with nausea was frustrating.

I still feel ill today.

I have no idea what is happening. I tested negative for Covid, so it’s not that.

Normally, I would try to get an appointment with my GP, but the last time I went in, I was blown off completely. I’m not sure what the doctor was thinking – because she wasn’t my regular doctor – but the attitude she displayed… in disregarding my concerns…

That’s exactly why black people so often avoid doctors. Not being taken seriously. It makes you distrustful of doctors – because the way they glance at you… you can already tell they don’t care.

She was so dismissive…

But I know that if I need an X-ray, I’ll have to go to the GP… and seeing as I can hear something when I cough, I’ll need a referral.

If I go to the ER, I’ll still need to follow up with the GP… and considering how little care people take to hygiene, I’m at an increased risk of being infected with something if I go to the ER.

…

Talk about being between a rock and a hard place.

If I end up with her again, I’m going to start off and ask her what I did to make her hate me so much. That feeling I have has nothing to do with my mental illness. It’s plain as day that she simply doesn’t want to bother.

I mentioned the need for an endocrinologist and she rattled off three questions, then claimed I was completely fine. I asked her about the DHEAS, and she saw it as a non-issue.

My level was 68 back in 2019, which is far below the safe minimum.

I need to see if I can find my primary doctor’s old referrals and try to use them.

I’m also supposed to have a mammogram too so…

~J. Lyst

I’ve been fortunate where I’ve not encountered negativity in most of my doctors.

I’ll likely write a note for what I’ll say at my appointment. I’m also going to reach out to my pulmonologist.