Hey, Miss J!

Today’s post title was sponsored by a friend of mine!

I had some things I spoke down (had phone voice to text) right after my previous blog post and after I woke up in the morning. I did have an alternative title for this blog post… but I…

Well, I’m uncertain. I’m used to being open about things, but only with a few people. I’m not used to being as such with others. Of course, in the past, I had a DeadJournal and a LiveJournal… they pretty much fell by the wayside.

My blog posts from long ago – well – we’ll just say that I’m a different person from then. It’s like a complete 180 degree reversal.

I’m like I’m a brand-new person entirely.

My mood stabilizer was raised from 50 mg to 100mg… And that dosage begins tomorrow. Last month, I was beginning at only 25 mg. I also gave my psychiatrist some paperwork that needs to be done.

I have other paperwork to do.

My wrist is still being a bother as well. I’ll be sleeping in my brace tonight.

I’ll just post up the blog snippets here.

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I’m a terrible person, and I apologize for that.

I am ridiculously unreliable. It’s a little ridiculous as to how bad this is.  Even for my phone I have to use voice recognition. Right now I’m wincing, Because of the fact that my right hand is cramping up so much. I also want to apologize to the people who might be expecting me to follow them back. I would love to, really I would.

And I’m not going to give one of those weird Break up excuses. The reason I call them weird is because breakup excuses are never honest excuses. In my case though, I can use the same kind of excuse because I’m being honest.

Oh it’s not you it’s me. But it’s true. I have the attention span of a GNAT and that is insulting to gnats everywhere.

I want to set the scene… it is currently 11:49 at night.

I’ll be honest, I never expected to have so many followers. In fact I was surprised when I got the 1st 10. I said this because well actually I’m one of my followers too. OK let’s be real I was surprised after the 1st 4 followers because the 1st 4 followers were composed of myself 2 friends and somebody else I can’t remember who it is.

Wait I remember who it is I think I do maybe I don’t… You know what never mind.

The problem that I know I’ll run into is if I begin reading from someone else I might start assimilating some of what they’re saying. Also feels kind of strange and I have looked at some of these blogs they looked nice.

I’m just worried that if I’m following they’ll expect me or rather you’ll expect me to comment or like something and I have a really bad issue with paying attention to things and doing things properly.

So even though I’m not actually subscribed or looking because of being subscribed And getting a regular update, I want to say that some of the people who I don’t know why but they’re subscribed to my blog some of you guys have the most beautiful pages I’ve ever seen.

I can’t remember the name but there’s someone who I think is doing like a lifestyle travel blog and I’ve never seen something so pretty… see I can’t think of pretty things.

I don’t do pretty things. My normal decorating style is actually Spartan in comparison. With The Sims though it’s so easy to decorate because they’re not me. That’s probably why it’s easy to Dress them too but I dress them based on their personalities and their personalities are all randomized.

Apologize though if my lack of activity kind of upset some people. I’m very awkward and I don’t know what to say. On YouTube videos it’s kind of easy I can say oh this is nice or this is terrible or like have a little emojis.

So I think the message I’m trying to convey through all this weird Warbled mess is that I’m very grateful for everybody. I think I’m actually happier for the blog that I am for my writing on fanfiction.net and Archive of our own.

And I’m gonna sign this section off at 11:58 PM. It’s my hope that in the morning or rather tomorrow I’ll be able to write and not been as much pain. Also my plan was to go to bed around 10 PM tonight but I had an assignment I had to deal with. You know what’s the weirdest thing this thing is actually better at listening to my words than my computer is… Funny!

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Well good morning sunshine. It is 5:56 AM in the morning. But yes I’ve decided to attempt to adopt the habit of getting up early in the morning like really early.

My thumb is still Hurting, But I don’t know if the same pain will strike… like the pain I had yesterday.

Now that I’m awake, I decided to turn off my alarm for 6 AM. I have a lot to do today this morning… On top of the Fact I have a 9 AM appointment.

And yes I’m Winding down my time until 6 AM exactly.

And considering it’s 559 I might as well just get moving now. I stand corrected it is now 6 AM and I’ve just received about 8 different text messages.

Wonderful well I guess that’s it for this snippet snippet. I’m not exactly sure what else to call it I guess I’m doing another one of those day in my life blogs I don’t know.

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OK it’s now 6:06 AM. Go figure I have not yet moved. However I’m getting up in the next minute and a 1/2 to Maybe 4 minutes I’m getting up before 6:10 AM.

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Hello again. Right now at 7:37 in the morning. And I’m dealing with yet another bout of Dizziness. this is not good…

To make matters worse, my dishwasher Does not want to work today. And I’m not even joking I turned it on … I loaded the dishwasher like I normally do. For some strange reason there was water inside the machine that shouldn’t have been there. So I was startled because when I went to pull out the rack there was all this water that just came out and it got all over the door it came under the door it was weird.

I’ve seen that before though but not in that quantity so I went and… Just one about normal. I went ahead and like I said I loaded the dishwasher, and then I put the water in the dishwasher. Like you’re supposed to do.

I have loaded the dishwashing tab in there. The problem however, is that the dishwasher did not turn on when I hit the power button. Now this is very strange for me because the light came on in the dishwasher when I opened the door.

I tried to unplug it, I turned off the switch breaker in the basement, I changed the outlet it was plugged into, and… I even tried to have it turned off for about 10 minutes or so because I thought that might fix it.

You can guess as part, it didn’t fix it!

Now it’s 7:42 in the morning, And I get to hear the wonderful sound of my neighbors arguing in the morning.

So for right now, I’m back to washing dishes by hand. Now I’m grateful that I wouldn’t purchase that saddle stool.

I’m going to try to give the company a phone call today after I get back in.

I’m really concerned about driving anywhere too far now because of the disease and the Vertigo. I mean I’m actually sitting down and I still feel a little bit off so…

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OK this isn’t good. It’s 7:49 AM, and I’m still sitting in this chair. I’m trying to get my bearings, my cat is sitting on a package of water. I feel like sinking right back into the bed.

I can’t Do that though. Although I will admit that it is a little upsetting and concerning. And I need to call my friend and let her know.

I can imagine how that’s going to go. ” Hey girl! Guess what? “

And she’ll Say, ” What? “

And I’ll say, ” Well it’s just that… I get disoriented even sitting upright! “

I’m gonna help this is just a sugar issue. Not that I mean diabetes I don’t want to have diabetes. But maybe because I’ve been moving so much and I didn’t eat today. But when I got disoriented yesterday I had eaten so I don’t know what’s going on.

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Point for Tonight @ 8:47PM

I’m typing this part out, but it’s been a full day. I was unable to call about the dishwasher… I was too burnt out.

I have a lot to do in the morning, so this will go up. I’m going to get in my reading tonight… can’t type up much sides… and then call it.

Thanks so much if you were able to wade through all of that.

Thanks even moreso if you did and decided to stay…

Bonne nuit!

~J. Lyst