misslyst

July 11, 2022

Hold Me Tight

I’ll note first that what I’m listening to is a song by I-Ten called “Alone”. I just emerged on the side of a mental bender. Again. This is a few weeks after we stepped down my dose back to manageable levels due to the pain I was experiencing in my legs and the chronic fatigue… Continue reading

Author Dabbles, health, Hobbies, mental health

anxiety, irritation, medication, mental health, sexual dysfunction, snippet, writers, writing

July 4, 2022

On And On

Not doing too bad tonight. At least I don’t think so. I disconnected myself from social media – quite easily. It’s become very smooth for me. The me of four years ago… or even last year would have found it difficult. I always wanted so badly to have friends, to have someone who cared. As… Continue reading

Introspection

fireworks, friends, social media, squirrels, unplugged

July 3, 2022

Dust

I’m trying to put words to how I feel right now. When I feel depressed, I would always go into what I call “death spirals” depending on the severity. My medication was stepped down a dose… and yet… I hurt, but not as much as I could. I lost a very good friend last month…… Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

death, depression, loss

July 2, 2022

Summer Nights

Time: 11:04pm Date: July 2, 2022 This time, I wasn’t late for an update because I didn’t want to mention anything. I was in such a rush to get prepared for Friday morning and Saturday morning that I literally couldn’t sit down to write much at all. I enjoy the 1st Friday of the month,… Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

anxiety, medication, mental health, schedule, sleep schedules, writing

June 30, 2022

So Sick

I can round this month off by stating how utterly annoyed I am with myself at present. I thought I was done with wrestling with side-effects of these drugs, but no. No, that would make too much sense. Coming to an emotional and physical plateau would be fine. Too bad that I never seem to… Continue reading

Introspection, mental health

anxiety, depression, juliette lyst, medication, mental health, side effect, symptoms

June 28, 2022

Restart

I missed yesterday. I know this. I started working on chapter 14 and was so excited and hyped… I figured that the next day I would have an idea as to what I could write about. Sometimes, we all just need a little refresher. Current Time: 10:21pm. I’m sitting here, nibbling on peanut butter and… Continue reading

health, mental health

mental health, misogyny, misogyny in healthcare, therapy, writing

June 26, 2022

Callin’

I know what my plan last night was… What I actually achieved is the exact opposite. I did not make a single keystroke. I think I’m literally tapping on dry now. Maybe the tank’s at or near “Empty” right now? I feel like I poured way too much into ‘Lemonade’ before stepping near chapter 14.… Continue reading

health, mental health

fear, forgetting, medication, memory loss, mental health

June 25, 2022

BFasts and Edges

Today was a scorcher, with one of my friends becoming very sick due to the heat. I personally use an umbrella designed to repel UVA/UVB. The interior of it is black and when I’m under it, it feels like there’s a tree right overhead. I have plans tonight, some of which include cooking, some eating…… Continue reading

Author Dabbles

fanfiction, juliette lyst, Spider-Man, writing

June 24, 2022

What A Drag

Time: 10:21pm. Music: Heart – Stranded I’m starting to feel excited in things again. I don’t want to take this feeling for granted. I wonder if the change is due to my pills or my family situation. Problems and stress with family, then the pain of ignored phone calls made me very depressed. I never… Continue reading

health, Introspection, mental health

anxiety, depression, medication, mental health, physical health, pills

June 23, 2022

When Nightmares Become You

Today was fairly good. I cooked up some tasty dinner, paid some bills. I can’t really complain too much about my day. I feel fine. Course, a night cannot be complete without gunshots. So while I am okay, the person hit by those 16+ bullets was most certainly not doing well. Morning news will not… Continue reading

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