Hey, Miss J!

In Recognition Of Limitations

I have a confession to make.

I can’t do it anymore.

As of today, I will no longer be writing, editing, or even reading fanfiction. The latter part is going to be a bit difficult, but it’s for good reason.

To sustain my mental and spiritual balance, I can’t do it any longer.

I’ve been plagued for months over this. And since January, I have questioned whether or not I should quit.

This was not a spur-of-the moment decision either.

Writers. We pride ourselves on our work. It feels good to have positive feedback and fanfiction is one of the fastest ways to get it.

I’ve been writing at least since I was 8 years old… and I’m a lot older than that now.

NtC was over 1,000 pages by itself.

But…

Today, the final straw fractured and shattered the camel’s back…

The aim/goal/whatever of the fanfictions… along with the content were upsetting to me. A few of my reviews made it much worse…

Plus, I found myself obsessed with seeing how many hits… how much traffic I brought in.

To an unhealthy degree.

I really feel sorry for the people who were subscribed and interested in my stories online, but I needed to make a clean break.

And by clean… I mean CLEAN.

Fanfiction.net has been wiped document AND name wise—archive of our own has been completely deleted. Facebook is also gone… and as I no longer want to have any remnants of anything, I’ve also deleted all the files from my PC and tossed the notebooks.

Any printed to edit documents will be done away with, and if and when I find any additional files, those too shall be gone.

I will no longer have my now nonexistent fanfiction as the focus of this blog. Instead, I will be focusing on my continuing mental progress, my art and photography… and my book, which I will mention by name… as soon as I get a decent manuscript set up.

Now… my blog AND podcast will remain as they are little “breadcrumbs” that have tracked my journey, and I still have my YouTube page, but whether or not I’ll update… that’s up in the air .

Positivity is still the aim of my game, and I want to reflect that, going forward.

I was always so stressed working on chapters. Trying to please everyone else was removing who I was as a person.

Now then…

The biggest issue I need to attack with the new book is the illustration. My first drawings look horrifying.

Will see how it goes. I might share the fright on here for all to see.

~J. Lyst

I am still Juliette Lyst… regardless.