Hey, Miss J!

Daily writing prompt

How are you feeling right now?

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My answer to that could go in different directions.

If I were to discuss how I felt mentally… I could rightly say that I felt frustrated.

• I want to keep some communication with my father.
• But then I don’t want the aggravation of him constantly getting off the phone right after picking up, promising to call me back and never doing it.
• My dad lives with my aunt.
• My aunt is a pain in my backside. She knows why I’ve cut off contact in the past and seemed to “improve” only to get me to speak with her again.
• My father and aunt put their phones on speaker without warning me.
• They keep talking about the same disruptive things they did before.

So, I suppose that I am frustrated. But while I am, I’ve once again cut contact with them. However, this time I didn’t tell them.  

There was no forewarning of a mass “ignore” coming. Just like they do to me, I’ve decided to spring something on them without notification.

The last time I kept them blocked, my life was so much sweeter. Then I stupidly listened to my psychiatrist and since then, I’ve been on again off again with cutting contact.

This time, I’ll have to hold firm with it. I have my life here and they have theirs where they are. I can see things already going downhill over there.

Now… if you mean physically… Well, that’s a different story.

• I’ve been in pain most of the day. An underlying ache is what I’m used to. Mild headaches, I’m also used to. Muscle cramping I’m not a fan of, but had to deal with pains in my back. First day in PT, have some new exercises that I can actually do.
• Right now, I’m a bit groggy and a bit “coughy,” which is a result of taking a trial version of Trelegy Ellipta. Within 9 days, I was coughing so hard that I was sweating. The cough I developed from that medication is now part of my normal daily life.
• The extreme fatigue I’ve experienced the last few days has been an utter nightmare. It’s worse than it’s been in a long time.
• I had paraffin therapy on both hands today, ‘cept I started yelping because it was so hot. For reference, I’m very sensitive to temperatures. Eventually could get it done though, which was very nice and squishy.

All In All?

Right now, I am OKAY.

~J. Lyst