Hey, Miss J!

I hope I don’t have a blog post with this title already…

I really… really hope I don’t have a problem with some of these new leanings in the next few days.

Since I’ve found myself feeling extremely depressed to the point of sickness… I’ve decided to not let the madness keep going.

I’ve never been a fan of toxic people, or the ridiculous drama that comes from them. Even though I do write drama… I enjoy days when I literally can’t remember what happened since it was so easy, clear and stress free.

Having crying fits in my room over this madness doesn’t do anything other than keep the focus on the insanity.

So… I did purchase a book that kind of in a roundabout kind of way will help me work myself through everything. Perspective… that’s what my focus needs to be. As a writer, I always look at things from different angles.

In real life though? I’m not at all in the driver’s seat. I can’t control everything that happens around me.

So… I figure it’s important to focus on what I can control.

I feel frustrated sometimes because I keep going around in circles it seems… Just constant circles, and I don’t need nor want that. I don’t want to sound like a person who nags, especially not to myself.

What if I have to deal with the same issues? With the same maddening people??

I’ll focus on what else I plan on doing for the day and the importance of that versus wasting time and letting people live rent free in my head.

It’s better for Peter and Jen to be perched there.

I really miss writing for them…

~J. Lyst

I’m pretty grateful for my former therapist’s suggestion to maintain a blog, to pen out what’s in my mind. Even off the ergonomic board, my hands and my teeny, tiny brain have adapted to the change of space. Again.

I have no clue what to do with my laptop’s board. It’s making me feel madder than I already am.