Still trying to come to terms with my current situation. It’s odd… frustrating even. I get used to one issue (or major problem depending on my interpretation)… only for another more troubling problem to rear its very ugly head.
I feel so anxious and stressed… worried about the possibility of surgeries or additional medications.
Because I’m facing the physical evidence of my health problems on the daily… it can be quiet demoralizing.
I’ve begun having nightmare again, and in general feel very distressed.
I nearly fell flat on my face when I woke up from a nap today. My hips felt freakishly loose, and I was wobbling.
The only reason I took the nap was due to stabbing pains in my left side. I felt fine after I went to sleep… until I woke up and moved.
All this stuff, constantly feeling pulling on the muscles in my back… I feel like I’m losing my mind some days.
I can’t seem to escape the pain I’m in.
It makes me not want to cook… and then I feel sick because I’m not eating enough. So I end up ordering something to eat… which isn’t good because I can’t really afford it at all.
Can’t get a break… because movements are so difficult now.
…. I think I’m gonna go get a snack. Maybe make popcorn or make some crackers. Or grab some fruit.
One of those.
I’ll attempt to push through more stuff in the house and clearing up my room.
I want to play the Sims so badly rn.
~J. Lyst
Hey, Miss J! 
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