No walk tonight, but was on point with my eating, which is fantastic.
It was so annoying to count each and every single calorie today. Drove me nuts. I wanted to start biting into the side of my fridge today.
I had a very big breakfast, but it was super healthy too. My lunch was also healthy… and I’m struggling so hard to make sure that I monitor my intake. But the salivation was still there.
It still is now.
My youngest cat looked absolutely delicious a few hours ago.
So soft and tender…
HOWEVER…
She was ridiculously expensive in terms of vet visits. So, I figured it would be about $500/lb for her. And yeah…
No eating the kitten.
I was too tired to take my walk earlier today. I found out this morning that I can’t ingest caffeine along with my antidepressant and mood stabilizer. If I want it, it has to be 1 hour before I take the meds or 2 hours afterwards.
Which means I’ll need to build up my stamina to push myself to go further.
The problem I’m running into is the extreme muscle fatigue. I struggle to cook properly, to do anything that involves my arms. It’s irritating but also very scary… I’m so scared that this is attached to my spine, but then again, I’m not sure. I do know that walking up 14 steps makes me feel like I’ve sprinted up the block.
My legs are on fire.
The constant muscle fatigue and pain is really wearing on me.
At least with caffeine, I could sort of push through.
But with this fatigue and the muscle soreness?
Oh my goodness…
~J. Lyst
Thankfully, I have appointments coming up for physical therapy and pain management. I hope they can help me. Cos half the time, I dream of just cutting my own limbs off and slapping on new ones…
And I know that’s not gonna happen.
Hey, Miss J! 
Your Thoughts?