It goes without question that today’s blog post title is based on a new chapter I’m due to edit soon. I’m between scratching my head and being very very amused over what’s going to be happening in that chapter.
I’m working on the whole “consistency is key” bit with my medication, but I’m starting to see some benefits. Of course, since the “half-life” of my mood stabilizer is only 8 hours, it means I start really faltering in the later part of the afternoon. Around 4PM.
Today, I did some driving so it was up and down on that part really in severity. I was already sleepy when I woke up, which is never a great way to start.
I had chores I was supposed to do and if my left knee hadn’t started failing on me, I would have done at least half of them. Unfortunately, now I’m at the point of the day when I just can’t even. If the knee was fine, I couldn’t be bothered to do much at all.
I’m angry because I just realized I need to check on both cats and make sure they’re up here and not trapped in the basement. And hoping my leg can last the distance.
I checked on Chapter 25 of NtC and was shocked to see nothing there. That’s not like me at all… then again, I haven’t been like myself in a long time now.
I’ve had to face facts that what normally happens at night when I’m trying to do chores… is that I’m so tired and moving so slowly – which makes things take so long that I lose sleep… then I get mad at myself for not doing much when the whole reason I did so little was that I was up so late. And the next day I’m completely off-kilter and not taking my meds right.
That said, I’m gonna sprawl out in bed and re-read over C&R III, Chapter 1.
I’ll be able to edit and upload Chapter 24 of NtC, but unfortunately, I might be delayed with Chapter 25.
It’s not a question of if I can stick to a schedule and pen a realistic one… it’s moreso that I must now.
I’ll be working on that stuff and a lot of other stuff – starting tomorrow morning.
~J. Lyst
Sorry for the blog posts of late that have been literally insane. I’m starting to feel better now. And after all, journalling is part of my therapy, which is why I started working harder on this one. I knew that writing it by hand would be a waste of time, depending on the day and the scope of what I wanted to discuss with myself.
A waste of time and excruciating because of the problems I have with my hands and writing now.
Let’s see… doc yesterday told me to start keeping a journal of how I’m feeling.
Heh… I think she forgot I have a blog. However, I will be directing her attention to it the next time I see her.
Hey, Miss J! 
Your Thoughts?