Hey, Miss J!

For the longest time, I’ve wondered and dreamt about what it would be like if I could build my own home. I got hooked into the Sims 4 back in 2019 after my surgery since I figured I could at least drown out my feelings in the game.

Well, now I still wonder what it would be like to build my own home. I’m great at dreaming up what I’d want, but between my head and reality… yeah, not gonna happen.

Recently got hooked into “tiny home” videos again. What it’s suggested… is that I literally have a lot of space already utilized in my house.

I’ve been on-again off-again in terms of my chores. And unfortunately, if it’s not written in front of me, I won’t do it.

So, my home, my body and my pets have been neglected.

For months.

Since like June last year.

Now, I have a working computer, just need to get the brain and body working together. Between that and the sharp increase in my back pain, I have been very unhappy for a long time.

Way too long.

Now, I’m about to take my medication extremely late tonight. My doctor failed to call in my antidepressant prescription on Tuesday. I notified my case manager. He said he would reach out. I just so happened to call him today to ask if she’d put it in yet and it was…

It’s FRIDAY night now, but Friday afternoon, I was furious! How do you completely forget about a client when you are the one who told them to send you the info you needed?

I should have forced myself to stagger back into her office for a paper script if I couldn’t get anything else.

Been so absorbed in building small and functional homes though.

All with dreams of what I wanna see… what I wanna have…

I think I need some time away from Sims… like months would be best.

And I need to spend more time on myself, because if I keep neglecting things, things are going to get a whole lot worse… very soon.

I didn’t mention it earlier, but I also just ate at 10PM tonight.

I’m in a near frenzy it feels like.

I don’t like this…

So I need to actually sit down tonight and pen out what I need to do for the next few months.

I don’t want to destabilized.

~J. Lyst

I just need to get the chores back on track… everything else will fall in place.