@1:01AM, November 20, 2023
Once again, we’re pulling a near all-nighter.
I also just realize that I forgot to take my nerve medication. Doggone it!
After this brief snippet, I’ll go do that.
I went ahead and plowed through the first chapter of C&R III. I’m uncertain if I’ll keep it as a short or continue the series. It’s pretty neat… that I was able to hammer out over 20K in just a few days, alongside working on a 50K challenge.
On the 50K, I’m nearly up to 20K words. So you could say that in less than 30 days, I’ve already busted through 40K words.
Were this a lone series, I’d be good to go, but instead, it’s a completely different story. If I can manage at least 3K a day, I’ll be okay for the 30th. After all, between yesterday, I wrote 7.8K… so It should be doable.
Problems: I need to eat… and I need to shower. And and… laundry.
Okay, I’m setting this down to take my meds and hit all rooms tonight. I got three done yesterday before I got distracted. I’m gonna redo all three of those rooms, then head upstairs and work the three there, including my split bedroom/office. They each get their own 20-minute increments.
Ugh… I am certainly ‘feeling the strain’ in my middle finger on the right hand.
WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE MIDDLE FINGER?!
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Today: 2:19PM on November 23, 2023
How did I forget that this was here? In all honesty, I’m confused and a little angry. I referenced parts of this song in Chapter 19 of NtC.
It’s the strangest thing… for some reason, I always think that the content of my stories is either boring and/or stupid. Then, I go back over it when I’m editing and I’m like… ‘You know what? Even if it is boring and stupid, I enjoy it!’
I’m still hung on reading the ‘unedited’ version of C&R.
Yikes.
Even though I need extremely heavy revisions… I still like what I’m reading. While I do acknowledge that there are more adultish elements to the entire series… these will be rectified in the uploaded edit to ‘clean’ them up. Then, as I do with all things… the originals before cleaning will be deleted and shredded.
For Chapter 18 of NtC, there’s some scattered element of the original and I found out that one of my devices holds the original before the edits. I’m going to blend it with the newest revision to have a more tasteful product.
The delete the original.
I do know that one of my readers asked for a special chapter for my readers to enjoy, but as I said before… I don’t want to.
I’m still a recovering sex-addict at the end of the day and because of it, even though I frequently have my thoughts go in that direction, I’m trying to avoid it coming out in my writing… which is why I do so much work to remove obvious elements of what’s there.
Unfortunately… someone out there has a printed copy of chapter 18.
Oops.
I also want to point out that the words “recovering addict” doesn’t mean that the problem will be gone eventually. The person still has addiction, but they’re activity fighting it. It’s something that you need to fight for the rest of your life.
…However that long it may be.
If you give in at one point, you’re back to square one… which isn’t nice to be at again. That is… if you can get away from it again.
~J. Lyst
I was asked recently how I was able to listen to love songs without it influencing me. I simply explained that I do my best to distract myself.
It helps… to avoid websites and literature of a graphic nature too.
I also use myself as a test subject for C&R and NtC. If I feel fine after writing and re-reading a chapter, I don’t feel uncomfortable releasing it for readers.
I’m extra sensitive to what I read, which is why I use myself.
A bad idea? Likely, which is why I delete the older versions that have what might be too much for me.
That’s enough for today’s confessional…
Tomorrow… More on the chaos that I experienced today… as I juggle doing 1 ½ assignments all while working on more content for NtC Chapter 20. And laundry… soo much laundry.
I’m on Chapter 20… two more to go before Nano is done.
Pray for me. Seriously. I already am, and have already promised myself that this is the absolute last time I ever do Nano. If I stupidly try this again in the next 1-3 years, someone please remind me.
Got too many responsibilities that have been neglected for this competition.
~J. Lyst
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