Hey, Miss J!

I remember I said before that I was feeling the strain? I’m really feeling it now.

A hunk of my personal life has taken a backseat to NanoWrimo… and that makes me very sad to admit. I’ve decided that this will likely be my last Nano… it’s just too much pressure on my joints.

I have a lot of responsibilities that have been neglected because of this competition.

I also belatedly realized that I could have combined C&R and NtC… I would have been nearly done by now.

STUPID!

Instead, I’m lagging by close to 9K every single day. On the Nano site, they suggest writing gibberish, like: qwerawfn kjjhnjaf jknjklnas ujnjnj jjjlnas jlnaf

While I could do that… or just copy and paste pages of the word: Eggs, that wouldn’t be fair, would it?

I have three lessons that are due starting tomorrow.

For Friday, I need to have enough sleep.

So that means that for this silly competition, I’ll be working on my writing AND my lessons at the exact same time.

Well… not exactly together but… you get the drift.

Early Black Friday sales emptied already empty pockets. Got some really nice knives though. And speaking of knives, I finally learned how to start dicing my veggies like the ‘pros’ do. Which is fantastic… as I’ve now for some insane reason went and bought a vegetable cleaver. To go next to the meat cleaver.

I also picked up lots of hobby related stuff and finally replaced my old vacuum. It was making me worried because it kept overheating… and that came straight down to the motor, which I think was torched when the plumbers here used it to suck debris out of my drain. They quite possibly got water in the machine and didn’t tell me.

That vacuum cleaner was nearly $300… on sale. And now it’s sitting in my trash can. I want to cry so badly. It was so nice, so lightweight..

…

Because of that, I’ve had to deal with gradually dustier and dustier conditions in here.

If I could personify how I see money right now, it would begin growing a pair of hummingbird wings and fluttering away before I could think of blinking.

The new vacuum has cool features like a touchscreen. Unfortunately, the machine weighs 15lbs, which is twice the weight of the vacuum I just had to dispose of. I also need an additional piece to attach before I can put the full ‘hose??’ in place with the attachment for the floor. I can see myself using the vacuum with the brushes down in the basement.

Concrete floors… but lots of stuff to clean up.

I have to almost brace the vacuum against my shoulder to carry it. Which means my cleaning routine is about to get a lot harder… but easier than not being able to vacuum at all.

Oh well.

I suppose I need to go.

I’ll also inform my psychiatrist that I’ve been dealing with weird spurts of mania… but the kind where I’m erratically spending and aroused every half hour—all while staring into space. Not the kind where I want to kill myself with one of the many knives I have here.

And I have a lot of knives. About to get like 3 more in here.

~J. Lyst

Tonight, will be an utter nightmare. I already know I won’t have much time at all to rest.

My body OR my wrists.

~J. Lyst

Yes, I did that twice on purpose.