Hey, Miss J!

My phone rang repeatedly today.

I promise that I’m not that popular.

Once again, I got nothing done in my writing.

To the surprise of no one. Not even myself.

It’s fine. Fortunately, none of my close friends are my readers. In fact, most of them have no clue that I’m writer unless I mention it in passing.

I think only two or three of them have any clue that I’m a published author.

Though to be fair, my penname was completely different… but my actual name is found in the “About” page at the end of the book.

Hah… which is one of the many reasons I don’t share my name online. One of my contacts on FB was trying to figure it out.

Since as soon as you google my name… my book is the first thing that pops up. Right next to my name.

Oh! And my aunt has an autographed copy… which she said some months ago that she’s never read… since she only reads things that are interesting to her.

Mind… it’s been nearly a decade since I published that book.

Oh well…

Anyways…

I’m finally going to sit down and write up my schedule.

Problem #1 that I’ve been running into… I need to keep up my blog time table. I should probably start spewing out a bunch of those ‘hour-by-hour’ things.

Problem #2. I suffer from insomnia… unless I take my anxiety meds which leaves me looking half dead in the morning – afternoon. By the time I’m somewhat awake, I’ve missed most of my day.

Problem #3. Not sleeping right has thrown my eating schedule completely out the window and stomped on it.

Problem #4. Sometimes I feel like I’m going to pass out. A bit lightheaded, very frustrated. Extremely fatigued in the muscle region.

I’m also once again fretting because I have paid 0 bills to date, and I’ve got a bunch of adult things to get done.

For crying out loud though! The month is nearly over and nothing is really completed.

SO, my decisions to help with this… cut out most of the entertainment. I’ve already restricted how much time I have on my browser and games. I also restricted my time on my YouTube app.

It literally will warn me 3 times and lock up for the rest of the day until midnight.

Time does not roll over. In others words…  if I did nothing, I still have the same time limit the next day.

Someone… somewhere has got to be cut so I can get some semblance of normalcy… and some order in my life.

And less chaos, because my life is literally a life in chaos… but I need to get a handle on my sleep and eating, cos I’m going to get very sick.

I’ve already been dealing with chest pain and palpitations… which are scarier than missing any of the tasks I have to do. The pains and such are due to sleep deprivation. My body just can’t handle that anymore. It’s dangerous for me to be so sleep deprived.

Which means if I want to sleep normally at all, I need to take my meds, eat right now, do my schedule, and pay the bills. And go to bed.

~J. Lyst