Hey, Miss J!

I’m thinking that hopefully, I’ll be able to get into a regular routine of Exercise and PT very soon! I’m noticing that when I clean… unless it’s a deeper than normal clean – I’m done pretty quick.

I need to try to figure out when to do the deeper cleans.

Probably after I’m done with the initial cleaning? With the time left?

It’s strange too.. but for some reason, it smells good in my room. Like some sort of perfume.

Goodness knows what the smell is coming from though. Unless it’s from my clothes.

A friend of mine bought me a great body oil, and I use it fresh out the shower. It smells sooo good! The smell lingers for hours and hours. Between that, my hair lotions, deodorant, and body powder…

Yeah.

That smell in my bedroom is likely off my body.

I last wore one of my shirts on Saturday, and I can still smell it all over the shirt.

Good grief!

I’ve never smelled so good in my life!

Course… to be fair.

I never really cared about my appearance or smell at all before. It was a zero on my radar in my 20s. By the early 30s, I was starting to care more… Now? I’m learning the basics of trying to stay moisturized. I use a completely different hair lotion when I’m out and about.

One of my friends saw the row of hair milk I have in the bathroom.

I’m also still losing hair… though I think it’s a side effect of the meds now.

Daily, I keep hoping that my “combovers” continue to work. I have ridiculously thick hair, so I’m styling it to hide the bald areas and also creating a very fake hairline.

Extremely fake.

I’m struggling – seeing my changing appearance in the mirror too. I’m losing weight, which is very good. But I’m starting to see lines on my face in places they never were before.

Like on my forehead. And around my mouth. Part of that is good, because I do enjoy laughing.

But now I’m getting traumatized at the idea of crow’s feet.

And varicose veins. Though that’s less likely. It doesn’t run in the family.

And I can see veins in my eyes. With light brown spots… and I’m trying not to run to WebMD and find out that I’m about to lose my eyeballs.

I don’t want to call it traumatizing… but I see myself every day and am startled to see how everything’s slowly changing.

I’m visibly aging… and I’m not sure how I feel about that.

I’m now waiting to see gray hair. When that happens, I am so going to style that up right!

I’m of course sitting here staring at myself with a compact… and it is sort of cool.

I can see myself, seeing myself – In my eyes.

~J. Lyst

I waved a hand near my lamp to figure out what on earth was reflected in my eyes, and I could see my hand waving in the mirror of my eyes.

Trippy…