My mother used to always tell me: “Do as I say, not as I do.” Of course, being young and impressionable, I did what any kid would do. I went to my grandma and asked her what I should do. My grandmother’s words were different: “If someone does something, let the teacher know.”
Do not retaliate.
As I grew up, those words became: “If there are problems, consult an authority figure.”
I’m an adult now, but that early training is still there. I feel extremely guilty if I do the wrong thing, and I do not like it when people lie. I’ve been angry with myself over lying as well.
What I tend to do now is omit – withhold information… which saves me the problem is being questioned over and over about the same thing.
… The weight of secrets my poor tiny mind is crammed with…
My memory isn’t that great at all anymore. So, if I must repeat something – it might not all be accurate.
That’s pretty frustrating to admit.
I’ve also been worried about NtC. I was supposed to begin my revisions by now, but between my declining energy levels… I can’t sit for long hours anymore.
I would therefor need to spread a chapter out over the course of three or so days. Since I have three assignments a week.
Yikes.
Could I manage 3,350 – 3,400 words three days a week? That’s just for NtC…
I have OA to revive. Then there are my Shorts.
What I plan on doing for my stories is audio notes. Instead of straining my hands with handwritten notes, I’ll speak what I’m working on, then transcribe it and tape it into a notebook.
I’m averaging 2-2,500 words for my assignments.
How many words is that??
If I go and calculate – because I am using my calculator – I have…
Huh…
Between 16,050 – 17,700 words.
RIP my claws.
To be fair to myself because I’m actually hurting due to fatigue… I’m going to turn in shortly. Just doing my Duolingo, checking on the cat and rolling everything over to tomorrow.
~J. Lyst
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