Hey, Miss J!

11:03AM

I just woke up from one of the worst dreams I’ve had in a while. I fell asleep working on my new schedule. I didn’t sleep for long, maybe 20 minutes, but I saw… my first cat. I saw her dart out from under my bed, look at me and climb back under it.

When I dream, they tend to be quite vivid, so I saw her in crystal clarity. I thought she was real for a moment. I think I physically called out her name. Then… I felt just awful, because I had to remind myself that she was dead. I teared up, it hurt so much.

It’s like the frighteningly vivid dreams I have about my maternal grandmother. I’ll find her sitting at the dining room table, reading the newspaper or having a cup of coffee. Then, I sit down and tell her about my day. She’ll smile, dimples showing and tell me how happy she is that we have time to talk.

Then… I feel myself yanked back to the present – almost stuck in limbo between seeing her and the knowledge that she’s been dead since 2006. Also, that dining room table is also gone. I eat in the kitchen or in a fold out chair in the living room.

Or in my bedroom / office… or in bed. The location I eat in don’t matter much as I don’t have anyone to eat breakfast with.

And yes… I have no normal furniture inside the house like regular chairs or a couch. I have a few chairs that used to be in the kitchen, about two or three of them and two padded fold out chairs.

On the plus side, my schedule has been completely redone and I even managed to schedule in time for naps! Free time is in its biggest span on Sundays and Tuesdays.

Will see how it goes! The new schedule starts tomorrow… Technically today, but eh… Actually, I will have it start today. I have a nap scheduled soon, so I’ll be powering through it and doing two assignments that should have been done correctly to begin with.

Should be fun. Might possibly go to bed or nap right afterwards.

That’s it for now. Let’s see how the rest of the day goes!

8:30PM

I feel sometimes like I have accomplished nothing, and I know that’s being unfair to myself. I’ve done quite a lot today… unfortunately, spinning through YouTube ‘shorts’ fell under the bulk of it. Or those wonderful videos on the Dodo channel. Mmm. I really like the video about the ‘bubble’ puppy.

I do have a lesson to work on tonight. Since I plan on going to bed relatively soon, I’ll be trying to sleep early so I can get up early and get stuff done.

While I was unable to get all that I wanted done today, I did get some things accomplished.

~J. Lyst

Sorry this wasn’t exactly the update I thought it would be.