So… This is awkward. Again, I’m using the name generator for a title. Also, for some strange reason I have developed a cramping sensation in my right hand. I think I got a little bit too arrogant this week.
Maybe I was just excited. I liked the idea that I was able to focus better. Unfortunately I didn’t take the fact that I am organic into consideration.
And now, you may wonder what I mean by organic. It’s just another way to say physically weak, physically flawed, possessing only a brain of that only functions properly half the time.
If you’re wondering, I’m currently writing this BLOG in a windows speech recognition program. At least I think that’s what the name is.
I mean, I can still use my hand. The problem is… It is excruciating!
Right now, I’m using my pointer finger and my THUMB to adjust my writing.
If you’re wondering about why some of these words are capitalized, the reason is that this program is unable to recognize the words I’m using sometimes. Now it could be that… Or it could be that my speech has become so indistinguishable, or maybe I’m slurring too much for my computer to understand me.
However, I’m very grateful that this technology exists. I actually forgot that I had reset this computer. So, I needed to kind of retrain the computer to recognize my words. And considering how I Sound to myself, that is a big ask.
I will admit that I am frustrated, because I have nightly reading. I’m starting to see my nightly reading – and the writing as an addition to my normal therapy.
I think I’ve said this before, however before my previous therapist decided to leave me high and dry, she assigned ME some homework. That whole task was of course to update my BLOG on a regular basis.
That is the reason that I try to update the BLOG every day.
I suppose I should get into what I wanted to discuss earlier.
Any one – first off – any one that has to use a speech recognition program understands the frustration you have when the letters or words aren’t correct. I’m currently enjoying some edits with my left hand, my right thumb, and my right POINTER finger. Although I suppose… enjoy might BE PUTTING it the wrong way.
Earlier today, around 2:15 PM, I was walking from the kitchen to living room WHEN suddenly I felt overwhelmingly dizzy. It was vertigo but the strangest vertigo I have ever felt.
It was as if I was being pushed… Rammed right up against my door frame. I’d nearly fallen into the door that leads into the basement.
Now I’m not an expert on doors, but somehow I think that’s falling against a door that has open space behind it might lead to me crashing through it.
Tomorrow, I need to discuss this with my psychiatrist. I’m currently on a mood stabilizer. I’m also on medication to treat my depression. On top of that, because I have fibromyalgia, I have medication to treat that… And that medication also helps to treat my anxiety. Now, I am dealing with a HOST of intermingled side effects.
We will C how this all goes. Now I could go back and correct the mistake in this paragraph. However, I want to show how difficult this can be.
The next sentence will be what my mouth to computer sees. I am mostly typing with my left hand. ß I will be reading these sentences.
The index ensues will be what my mouth to computer seas I am mostly typing with my left hand. I will be reading the sentence is.
Actually I’m impressed I didn all but out was that easily able to be heard.
Then again…
~ J. Lyst
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