Hey, Miss J!

I’m hanging out with my old cat and watching some Dr. Pol. The horse has a pink harness, and I can’t fight the desire to grin and laugh about that.

SO!

It’s been about four days now since I messed up my knee. And about two days since my ankle decided to stage its own protest.

For several days now, I’m made these broad declarations… like: “Oh! Today, I’ll totally put all my clothes away!”

Yeah, my clothes are currently still sitting on the bed, dresser, etc.

Also, I said: “Oh! I’m totally going to write an addendum for my chapters and start working on the next chapter of NtC!”

Yep… That didn’t happen either.

However, I did get some life things happening. I’m working towards getting a new hot water tank. I’m hopeful to get a new hot water tank. So so hopeful! I want it so badly!

I’m sick of having a frozen backside in the shower.

I know that in some countries, they voluntarily jump into water with actual ice in it. However, I’ve never seen myself as becoming a member of the polar bear club.

In any way. Shape. Or form!

Tonight, my goals are: Clean CPAP, get 4 hours of sleep and clean the litter box.

Oh! And take night meds.

What I want to do versus what I will do?

?? > ??

I can’t tell which one is “greater than”. Unfortunately, being dyslexic means I see stuff backwards. I still very upset about this. Couldn’t do collegiate Algebra because I kept inadvertently flipping either symbols or positive and negative.

Sometimes numbers were exact mirror images.

I’ve never been formally diagnosed. Though I keep struggling not to transpose numbers.

I’ve also never been diagnosed as being on the spectrum, even though I have many of the indicators of it.

Does it matter?

Though… it could explain why I stumble so poorly in person with conversation.

I feel awkward so often… it sucks.

At least online and on paper – I can get out my thoughts.

Mostly!

Alright, enough yammering!

Night!

~J. Lyst

Yesterday, I kept misspelling “Lyst” as “Lust” again. The fear of embarrassment causes me to repetitively check in my chapters so as to not make that same mistake.

Geeze. Can you imagine reading: “Written by Juliette Lust”?? People would assume it was some adult writing or summat.