I’ve been reminded today and this evening the benefits of having real friends. One of my closest friends told me today that I’m not a terrible person.
Even though inside I think I am. I keep thinking I’m stained by what’s happened.
Tonight, I was depressed and feeling worthless. The same friend told me that I’m not worthless. I’m sick.
I explained to her that it is a terrible thing… to be fighting suicidal thoughts for years – to be triggered – to have to pull back from the brink.
I can put it plainly now. I don’t fear death… but I really enjoy being alive, even if it’s painful.
Despite my frustrations and traumas, I’m still here. I just have to keep going.
Chapter 18 is a read I’m willing to do over and over and over again.
I need to check the chapter layout and see what’s happening and where. I might need to adjust. I know I need to get ready to rewrite approximately 4 chapters for Navigating the Curve. It’s great because I get to add in material that wasn’t explicitly mentioned before.
While I appreciate Echo and Ashley’s involvement, I did make a big mistake by having them as nearly main level characters.
I also made my newest set of earrings. I’m working on building up a stockpile, then figuring out how Etsy works and using it.
That’s it for now.
~J. Lyst
Hey, Miss J! 
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